How many times have you been insulted by the voices? Do you get the insults daily or are your voices more friendly towards you?
For me the voices have insulted me more than a “normal” “sane” person will ever hear in his entire lifetime. I get insults daily like 50-100. Its annoying and im thankful that they voices are disappearing.
How many times during the day would they insult you? What was the context? if you dont want to talk about it its fine. You dont hear voices or have they become positive now?
For me the voices were always criticizing me for their imposed “religious”/“metaphysical” on me. I was a christian before and lost the faith so they criticize me for being anti-christ and evil and what not. Also they insult me with past negative experiences ive had and actually ive had dreams (3 dreams/nights in a row: yesterday, the day before yesterday etc.) of these same negative experiences and you wake up and the voices make fun of you even more about this subject. Everything good turns out into a false perception of the situation and the voices make fun of you for not understanding what was going on. Its 2 ■■■■■■■ years of hell on earth. (4years if you count my pre-sz life of failure and rejection). And the worst thing is that these voices werent stopped by any AP i was given but are now going away because i am not taking AP’s.
Voices have been telling me to kill myself for 42 years. They go on and on with different methods. They talk about how everyone hates me and would be better off without me.
But one… would tell me how I was going to jail to because I was such a bad person… tell me how I was abusing others… would tell me to kill myself… would tell me I killed others…
would tell me how people are coming to get me… to get revenge for what I did to them. It would be relentless.
After a med change and some therapy… they started to fade and leave me alone.
Its impossible to ignore the voices for me. Its just as if a person is talking directly to you but without a physical body. and its not like some random mumbling, its a direct voice that talks clever and with imagination, just as any person or even family.
The voices are either neutral or kind. One individual in particular refuses to leave my side and I can feel his anger constantly bombarding my consciousness. It’s exhausting.