I want to make money but I only see failure. So living with parents. And my Father assured some property.
Well if you get the right kind of paper and such, meaning the right colors, I am sure that you could make some money.
Meanwhile, I am sure that you are one of the good guys who would wish to earn money, NOT make it.
Unfortunanately, there are are a whole bunch of people out there in the world who do nothing but focus upon āMaking Moneyā, rather than earn it, and do so by one deceitful way or another.
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that is why/the only reason we are helpless
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Sometimes I think they are testing our character for our next life, virtual reality
If so, we are the tops.
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that is some good news at last
It is the long waiting that hurts me. At the same time, I know it is wrong to shorten the waiting.
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wisdomā¦ ancient wisdom
okay see ya later
Well, it looks like I will have to get back to watching my confidence boosting movie, "The Forbidden Kingdom ".
It kept me alive during tough times, that in combination with " The Book Of Eli ".
The " The Book Of Eli " makes it clear that some fork will never change, and thus you have no choice but to fight against them rather than endlessly continue to try to save them.
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I think my sza is severe Iām on two antipsychotics and still suffering from symptoms 
Iāve been inpatient before and my pdoc is thinking about doing it again and switching my meds because my response has not been good.
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I believe it is nearly impossible to compare oneās suffering to anotherās. It is individual.
I have a job. I have family. But I hear voices while on 2 APs. Evil voices, nice voices, neutral voices. I hear them every day, all my waking hours. i have cognitive problems. I can hardly read and suffer from anhedonia.
But this is my suffering. I can only compare myself with me. How is today? Better or worse than yesterday? Last week? Last month?
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I have had schizophrenia on and off for 13 years - my one pdoc told me I have it mildly, but I have been (voluntarily) hospitalised six times for it. Iām on two ap meds, and doing well, but still have occasional avolition (lack of motivation), anhedonia, depression, voices and intrusive thoughts. And the man in my head - Alien - is always there waiting to strike. Heās my companion, but heās not me. Some say its a delusion, but I firmly believe heās real, even though I donāt see him. So my sz is not severe compared to others, but when I do get episodes I go into crises and need hospital if I donāt take my meds, because I get bouts of agitation and take a knife to my arm. So whether its mild or severe, I still suffer from it.
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Iāve been on the ward many times in years past. I was barely functioning from medication side effects and drank alot due to torture and depression. Iāve not had a good life with schizophrenia, but I donāt drink as much as I used to and my symptoms have withdrawn a little bit. Most of it was just having to be tough and out gut the enemies in my nervous system. I didnāt do a good job at that being I still get harassed and tortured by the voices daily. But Iāve gotten a way to cope a bit more. I would say my condition is debilitating, because of the traumatic blows and strikes to the face and the sexual assualt and (painal) frat boy games they play.
I really havenāt been truely happy for a long time. And if youāre a victim-and you canāt escape your attacker your suffer at their hands. I canāt escape these attacks, so theyāre pretty much doing permanent harm to my brain and body.
I sometimes lose faith in humanity because no one seems to understand how bad it would get. Theyād just dismiss it and say something to change the subject. Itās hard for another person to understand, theyāre not being punched in the face all day and getting constantly raped.
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Your post makes me think you are more mature than me but alcohol ? Seriously alcohol interacts with many medication and is dangerous to health.
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Thatās mainly because of my old military habits. There was alot of drinking and I drank alot even underage in the military. I joined at 18 and drank under the radar till 21. Once I got busted by cops when I was 19 off the base but I paid the ticket and kept drinking anyhow. Our job wasnāt easy and our leaders werenāt too nice. We learned alot from them though.
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my sz is pretty bad. I have voices i hear daily, images that flash to me, delusions of my reality. itās all a very big hurdle. i do have a job and a family. i am thankful for that.
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After taking two table spoons of l-theanine daily twice/morning and evening my delusions became zero
that is right zero
Iāve never tried the supplements they advertise on this site exception being invega. Iāve learned about awesome treatments but Iām battling the VA to get them. I may try I theanine
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I quit going to the VA and just use Tricare. I get better treatment and better meds.
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