I’m just curious how many others are on this site. I think we may have the worst mental illness. If my was strictly positive with delusions that would be nice. I know what it feels like to truly think I am going to die or be tortured. It’s some scary ■■■■.
I’ve got paranoid schizophrenia, but no hallucinations or voices. I consider myself lucky if that’s possible.
I was diagnosed as “Schizophrenic, with predominantly paranoid aspects”. But, I don’t think anyone’s trying or plotting to kill me, except demons… I generally think people in my life don’t care about, like or love me and that they would all be relieved if I was dead. I very often think my husband is cheating and wants a divorce (that he deeply regrets marrying me). And I think people at work talk to each other about how much they hate me and want me to get fired, or just disappear. I do think I’m being watched all the time, even in the staff bathroom at work…which I know really can’t be true but I think it every time I go in there.
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I’m SZA but it presents mainly as paranoia. From all I’ve heard though, paranoids have an advantage that much of the cognitive functions remain intact. There’s supposed to be a better prognosis for the paranoid subtype.
http://www.schizophrenic.com/content/schizophrenia/diagnosis/schizophrenia-prognosis
That’s good news, thanks for sharing Maggotbrane! I guess the moral of the story is that it could always be worse.
I’ve got plenty schizophrenia too. I don’t hear or see things either. But, i’m considering leaving this site already. Because i had a bad experience here and i feel people here hate me now. I just feel angry and feel bad vibes right now.
Was your bad experience getting your thread locked? I didn’t understand that either.
Im schizoaffective… ive got awesome bi polar too 
Holla
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I’m just pissed because i can’t delete things and block people. You have to report to the moderators it seems.
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You can delete a post if it’s less than 20 minutes old. But yeah, no blocking anyone.
I got paranoid schizophrena diagnosed 8 years ago
Ive been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia and yeah I’m paranoid about most things. Very suspicious of things…Everything is a struggle. I hate life right now. It’s been awful for years. But I smile and laugh a lot so most people think I’m happy.
Im a paranoia schizophrenia. I Didnt even Hear voices at first until I got on antipsychotics. Now I hear voices and even see things. It could have been the antipsychotics that caused this or it might have been destined to happen either way.
Since 1980. …
I have psychotic depression, but there’s a lot of paranoia in there.
I’ve thought that the government was spying on me and was planning to revoke my citizenship, I’ve thought that my landlord had cameras in my light fixtures, I’ve thought he was spending time in my apartment while I was at work, I’ve thought my coworkers were plotting against me, that people were following me around town.
I get anxious when there are cars parked in front of my house, when someone comes to the door, or the phone rings. Right now, I keep getting the idea that two of my friends are actually the same person. I know for a fact that they aren’t, but it keeps occuring to me that they are.
I find depression/negative symptoms more difficult, though. The paranoia is focused and specific, the depression colors everything.
Yep. It’s tough
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I’ve been diagnosed with paranoid sz too. At the moment though, I am med compliant and doing well with almost no voices and delusions. My delusions are mostly of the thought control type (having a man called Alien in my head who inserts thoughts in my head and speaks sometimes to me) more than the persecutory type, but I did have the latter at times when I was really ill (about my mother in law trying to poison me).
yup… diagnosed 3 years ago… i think i had it for 10 years.