Ive been hearing voices for 4 years now.
Do they ever stop for me its the whole day what work for me is doing something i can concentrate to like playing games or watching movies.
My pdoc told me things havent changed for 2 years and i feel like it the voices havent changed .
Is this normal that after 4 years i cant coop with the voices ? Are there people who have this as long as i have and still are frightened and bothered by it ?
5 yrs now, they never stop, itās the depth that varies, how mean will they be. I see them, I hear them and i feel them. Iām what is considered to be heavily medicated. It doesnāt work. Some days are ok and some days I want to kill themā¦ pointless really. I canāt imagine we will ever co exsist as they lie all the time and donāt respect me.
Hmmmm well my first memory was of hearing men talking inside of my fan so literally of auditory hallucinations. That wasnāt even my typical telepathic voices, that was straight up outside auditory not distinguishable from someone talking voices. I was 3. I didnāt find it scary because I didnāt have the logical sense to know it was abnormal.
The first telepathic (thought insertion) voice I ever got I was like 8 I think? My stuffed dog started talking to me. She was very kind. I still have that voice today in my head though the stuffed dog is long gone lol. It was so distinct from my own thoughts. Of course when I played I made my stuffed animals talk and assigned them voices like any other kid but I was always making up what they said. I wasnāt controlling what she said at all, it was like having a separate sentient being interacting with me.
I guess Iām not really afraid of them anymore because Iām used to them. Itās like when you get to know the school bully. Theyāre a threat but kind of old news. I hear voices every single day and when Iām with people sometimes theyāre quieter otherwise I try to ignore them.
Iāll talk to them still though and I can tell you thereās been a shift also. One of my voices that used to be very negative and hard to handle I now chat with casually which is nice. Crazy. But nice. Especially if youāre lonely itās like having a pal. Another voice doesnāt talk with me only to me about preparing and being ready for the mans arrival. Itās mostly just exhausting when itās so constant. I use electronic music to block voices out a lot. I find it helps and I dance to it.
First I heard voices 5 years ago. Just this year after changing meds to rispen they eventually stop. I am almost 6 months voice freeā¦
Be pacient. Those 4 years were HELL. I am glad I am OK now.
I may have heard voices as far back as 16. I definitely heard them at 18-19. And then a few times since. A couple months ago. But not too much in between. The internal stimuli used to torture me though. Worst symptom I ever had was the āinner voiceā controlling me.
I have had voices since 1998, 20 years, my first voices were āYou are with the Devilā and things like this, I was in America at that time, a lot has happened since 1998.
Once I was in Miami Beach in the summer of 1998 and I went to the restroom of one restaurant and I heard voices āthe CIA is with you, do not be scaredā and so.
I had the Buddha say I was the chosen one. It was very spiritual and almighty. I was convinced that I had to travel to the river Ganges in India and sacrifice myself to save the world. Medication helps. If I hear something unusual I sometimes question my own sanity if Iām hearing voices? I sometimes question if I actually heard Buddha.
For sure since I was 12 or 13. I had a running commentary. I had read something about the ego, super ego and the id and I thought the running commentary was my id. I thought everyone had it. It would curse at me and berate me all day everyday. That voice is quiet now. I tell him if he canāt say something nice donāt say anything at all. He sits quietly thanks to meds but I donāt think heāll ever be gone completely, heās just always been there. Now what I have is more like just random thoughts pop into my head, but I guess thatās normal even if unpleasant.