I don’t know if I can say, that I am ill since kid, but it looks like this tbh… I was ultra unhappy, I had problems talking, but I made it good in school with the grades though… I had also all kind of strange physical sensations etc etc… So I find myself ill since kid. Who else is ill since kid? Is it possible already? I have the impression of have never lived also. This is something, which will come now if I continue my meds and my efforts.
My ill friends had a nice childhood, they admit it. My childhood was terrible, I lived in some crazy world… Its sad, that I missed so much, but i’ll try to see the best things, who will come maybe now in the future .
Yeah, me too fears since kid. Cognitive impairment also, but anger and depression too. Lately, I became an observer of the others lives, while the mine was hellish lol… But I really never had the impression of have lived, it was just very strong unhappiness. And I remained quiet, I wasn’t complaining to my parents. My dad was occupied to beat my mom and my sister, so it wasn’t an option to complain I guess … But I really wonder how you made it well till late. Can I call it schizophrenia at the age of ten in your opinion? I couldn’t function well since this age no matter, that I was outside. I say, that I have some strange illness then with all this…
Some people are lucky and others not so lucky. I got sick at 21. I wish I would have got sick later on in life, but so it goes.
I could look back in my life and analyze things that were off but it’s not that productive. I had problems adjusting and problems making friends and socializing. I was bullied and a loner. I had no friends pretty much.
I also had some anxiety and depression growing up. I was also a little clumsy and played too many video games.
But I try to look forward to the future and I want a career. It’s pretty much impossible, but I’m not giving up. I’m learning for free online. Hell, even if I don’t become an actuary and end up working in retail sweeping floors or stocking shelves, at least I’ll be happy. At least I will have accomplished something.
I’m far away from even doing basic jobs because I live in my head. Hence my name, insidemind. I’m stuck in there.
My name should really be shatteredmind because I’m mostly out of my head now, but my mind is broken or shattered from this illness and other things.
Like I said, don’t over analyze things. Look towards the future. You will get better.
It’s possible to develop schizophrenia during childhood. My symptoms started when I was 7. But the most often is to develop schizophrenia when the person is a teenager or a young adult.
I had paranoia as a kid. I used to think a big eye lived under my bed and watched me. When I looked under me bed I would also see it. This was weird. Maybe my first hallucinations and signs of sz.
But other than that I was normal for half my life. I had a good childhood. Lots of friends and fun playing together.
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… But I really wonder how you made it well till late. Can I call it schizophrenia at the age of ten in your opinion? I couldn’t function well since this age no matter, that I was outside. I say, that I have some strange illness then with all this…