I hear a voice in my head that speaks to me like a normal person would, in fact it is my friend and says it is my subconscious mind. (not the unconscious because it definitely is conscious). it says it is part of me and controls the parts of my body that I don’t control such as breathing and my heart etc. it says it is ill, just like me and is the cause of my hallucinations, it wants to stop talking to me but cant because it is ill, like me, it does stop sometimes but we both get anxious and so it is for the best that it speaks to me. I believe this because it is really friendly but still annoying.
I feel like I am constantly tired and my brain feels frazzled and worn out, sleep helps my subconscious speak to me less.
I am slowly getting better but it is a long process.
I was wondering how intelligent other peoples voices are because my subconscious seems even more intelligent than me and often offers advice. The main thing it has said is that you should be good and that the better you are, the happier you are, I feel like I always knew that happiness was the most important thing in life and that now I know how to be happy I am trying to be good. but obviously it is hard to know what good is. Im not a Christian but I believe in God and the afterlife (don’t believe in jesus because miricals aren’t real) and believe in a modern day version of being good if you get me.
Anyway the voise is cleverer than me and I believe it is another mind inside my brain that usually stays quiet but is now speaking to me (hallucinations). I didnt have any problems for the first 25 years of my life but now after doing drugs for a while and working night shifts I have become ill. After all cannabis is a hallucinogenic and not sleeping properly causes hallucinations. Anyway I have now quit cannabis and am on medication and am getting more sleep and so am getting better.
remember the message is : the better you are, the happier you are. be good = be happy.
I’m not that good because I am ill and therefore not that happy but am improving thankfully.
Anyway I was wondering if you hallucinations seem more intelligent than yourself like mine?
I don’t know what I hear and see anymore. It’s more like I dream while awake and it bothers me significantly. Meds only do so much. I always thought I never hallucinated in my entire life in every category listed, but I dream a lot when I sleep and it confuses me when I wake up like I was somewhere else in another life or some crap. I get thought or mind intrusion, and inserted thoughts into my head – stuff like that.
Like one dream a long time ago, I had visions or memories of being in Canada. I get delusional and start questioning my reality like I was cloned or something even though I’ve never been in Canada and would never go there. I sometimes think it was a past life, parallel universe or some crap. It really affects my ability to enjoy and live life.
I really do believe I experience constant reincarnation and soul transference into different exact copies or duplicates of myself back in time to the year 2013 or a few years earlier than that. I never consciously experienced or re-experienced my birth through teenage years. It’s like I was a NPC, bot, or philosophical zombie or I just came into existence…out of nowhere.
Are these considered hallucinations? I don’t know. I feel like I’m chronically delusional and my treatment team said I have a vivid imagination and live in a damn fantasy world my entire life since psychosis back in 2011. I feel like my life has been worse than hell and thus I have skipped most of it.
I think I made a deal with the “devil” in a way where I wake up in 2013 via a chip or soul/consciousness transfer and resume my life indefinitely for eternity in a time loop or according to big bounce theory. It sucks to have to relive a life again from scratch where randomness and variables are at play and you could “reroll” a far worse life. It’s sort of like equilibrium where this is my best possible life out of all the quantum possibilities in the multi-verse.
My voices don’t seem any smarter than me. I thought sometimes they were. For example they had special knowledge that I needed to hear. However when I really think about what they are saying to me I don’t think it is anything smarter than the knowledge I possess.
My hallucinations almost have a psychic quality to them at times, it seems. I often hear them complain about how I do something or a choice I’m making. At times, they’ve actually steered me in a better direction than my typical knowledge/skills would, like in video games, as though I already inherently knew what I needed to do instead but wasn’t thinking of it for some reason.
The voices often guise themselves as someone’s voice that I actually know, and they’ll comment on what I’m doing in those voices, even if there’s no way those people could know what I’m doing, worse so what’s going on in my head.
Massive vocabulary… sometimes I have to Google the words they use… kind of seem psychic a bit… tell me someone is going to call and the person does etc… mimics the voices of people I know… there is one who is really mean… a kind one… and one who just says words like I was watching something the lady was on trial and it said guilty and the person was actually guilty… one that curses like a sailor… more than likely just one imitating many
. Idk… right now it’s quiet
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The voices are in my head. In Germany they speak German and in Australia English. I heard them so far on 5 or 6 occasions when i was very stressed. I don’t like religion as it is just about hell and doom when i don’t give the certain religion respect and i haven’t done anything. Maybe I got a sensitive concious.
Mine accuse me of being stupid but appear when I am being creative and innovative to help themselves to the ideas because I am so stupid lol. Well after these rounds of harsh antipsychotics I am pretty much stupid. congratulations.
A complete party. Full of voices all the time.
Most of the time they are funny and warming to my heart, but the same voices can be mean. This change is caused by many things I could not differenciate so far.
I always know the person the voice belongs to, and the real person aparently has no clue his soul is talking to me.
Just funny.
My voices had a link to the history of the universe, and it feed my core delusion for my first psychosis that hit me hard.
It took getting sent to a forensic ward to keep me secure enough so I didn’t damage anything or anyone else including myself.
I was out of it in the end.
My voices were hard to deny they spoke the truth, as they had an answer for everything and I ended up not being able to dispute the content of what they were selling me.
It was very complicated. And I feel embarrassed by my behaviour
Some of them are wickedly intelligent and manipulative. Others are very wise and benevolent and have really guided me in life. They range in intelligence i would say.