I believe I came down with this illness of sz at age 23. At the time, I was very depressed, but not suicidal, working a part time job, married, raising a baby, going to college, and psychotic. I cried a lot due to an abusive husband, and my psychosis presented itself as visual, olfactory, and gustatory hallucinations, grandiose delusions, paranoia, and de- realization. When I divorced my husband, I moved to Phoenix, AZ, with my baby, and my symptoms changed to a more affective nature. I became extremely depressed and suicidal, over many years. I was still severely paranoid with the paranoia being of a more mind reading nature. The hallucinations were olfactory but minimal. I lost my nursing license, and moved back to Omaha, NE. The pdoc in NE changed all my meds and put me on Risperdal and an SSRI and Depakote. My mood became better immediately. The psychosis did not improve much but the akithesa did. I had been on an old drug before. With all this change, I was much better, but, still very sick, believe it or not. For instance, I was still very depressed, but not suicidal, most of the time. I was still very paranoid. Still mind reading. And it was the mind reading that was making me depressed. I was sensing people’s thoughts, and all the thoughts that I was sensing were “HATE”. And it was all directed at me. Then, in 2003, I met a special pdoc, in Omaha, who is still my doc today, who put me on carbamazepine. After being on that drug for a few days, or a few months, I don’t know which, I felt my mood go up in my body just like an elevator. I’m not kidding. And it’s stayed up ever since. The other name for that drug is: Tegretol. Nowadays, I still have the symptom of mind reading at times, but what really bothers me and every one around me is the feeling I get of people “hating me”. I accuse people of hating me all the time. And sometimes it gets on people’s nerves. I just can’t shake the notion that some people sometimes hate me for no good reason. And there is never any good reason either. I have no depression any more, and have not had any for quite a long time. I am quite content and happy with my life in spite of everything, considering where I’ve been.
Sounds like things are getting better. There is no telepathy/
im happy for you, i want to get to that phase where i am happy…even though i dont know what happy is
There is a lot, lot less! Yes!
Only to schizos
edit: sorry I thought you said there is a lot.
Really though its only a symptom born from misperception
I’m 55 years old. I’ve always heard that things get better when you hit that half century mark. Turned out for me, they were right.
lol… im 25 (15 characters)
Likewise 26 in less than two months. Means I gotta figure out health insurance.
I’m glad you were able to find a good doc and help your baby and get out of a bad relationship. That is a lot of work . You’ve done so much.
Congratulations.
When I was younger… I had a lot of hallucinations and delusions.
I’m 30 and been med compliant for the longest time in my life. Things are leveling out. I still have a lot of negative swings. But with the meds and there therapy… I think it’s been easier to get through my day.
i primarily have negative symptoms right now, minimal positive symptoms. and erratic moods.
im 27
This is permanent. I’m 21.
It’s gotten better with medication. It’s gotten worse in that I developed a gastric reflux problem and now vomit at least once a day. That and my medication works better some days than others. Overall, the illness has progressed in the past year, but I have progressed more than it has. I plan to keep it that way.
hey,
Yeah you gain some you lose some!
I was hell smart before medications but an outright dufous… Too smart for my own good but unable to do University or anything else so just excelled at manual work…that really is a mugs game!
Heck yes!!! I’m way less symptomatic on meds but I’m heavier, I’m slower and I’m way more …not less intelligent but I suppose way less obsessed about the minutae of life! So…gain some lose some but the question you should ask is are you happier?
For that…omg heck yeah…!!! so much easier to get by without all that rubbish I used to deal with!
A happier person in the struggle,
rogueone.
Honestly my symptoms have diminished greatly over time. I used to be constantly delusional, I would just keep switching from one to another. I had paranoia attacks almost every night which made sleep near impossible, I was so scared for my life. When I was little (I’ve been this way my entire life) I had visual and auditory hallucinations, but the auditory went away and the visual got much more mild.
After I gained insight and realized I had problems around age 16 or so things started getting better though. I haven’t had a full blown delusion since then. I still get delusional thoughts fairly regularly, but I never become fully absorbed in them anymore because I learned how to recognize them. I also learned how to bring myself down from my paranoia attacks, and what my triggers were. The last time I had a full attack was this summer. I used to talk with voices constantly and now they’re pretty quiet most of the time, unless I’m in an episode.
Basically I’m just doing really well. Like what I deal with now feels like nothing compared to what it used to be like. That’s why I’m trying to focus more on my anxiety now, because that’s getting worse and can exacerbate the psychosis.
My schizophrenia symptoms has improved tremendously over these 6 years.I was first diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2009 January,after I was put on medication I feel very unwell and depressed,was on invega,and a lot of other antipsychotic.Up until recently which happened 1 and half years ago on November 2013 I was put on Mirtazapine and everything had improved since then.It took 2 months for Mirtazapine to start working and I am contend and can live a better quality life now,my hard work and more mature thinking helps too…
Started out as embarrassing delusions and hallucinations but with a year of medication I turned it around into hearing mostly, and I mean mostly positive voices although they only come out at certain times of need (there are some negative but I know they are just trying to be straight up with me).
It is possible to make things positive!
My mindreading stuff doesnt bother me as much. Now I think I am bieng tormented, controlled frustrated so things can work out for me. since i turned 40 my main problems are motivation to do anything and my suicidal thoughts and feelings are not as strong as they used to be.
@anon40326163 Almost a decade has passed since that was put out and things have changed since then.
I hear telepathy every day and I feel like other people are communicating. It’s crazy but I get caught up in the spirituality of it and can’t gain perspective. I also feel other spirits feelings. It’s typical schizophrenia type delusion. Unfortunately nothing has healed me yet and I’ve suffered nearly 26 years…
Zombie thread.
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