For me it’s been a lot of goodbyes. Many people have disappeared out of my life. My relationship with my ex came to an end.
Me and the best therapist I’ve ever had, had to say goodbye because I had to go to the adult psychiatry because I turned 18.
I graduated from high school and had to say goodbye to my teachers and all of my old classmates except for one of them.
I’ve gotten mentally worse. I’ve spiraled further down into this psychotic hell. More symptoms, and same symptoms, but on a worse level. I’m being transferred to a psychosis clinic very soon.
On a brighter note;
I’ve learned a lot about self respect when it comes to how others treat me.
I’ve learned to be myself more, I guess I’m less insecure. I’m starting to accept who I am and who I’m becoming.
I don’t self harm as much anymore. Not as much as I did last year and I think I must thank DBT for that. Sadly I had to say goodbye to the DBT-team as well.
Conclusion:
2017 has been a rewarding year, yet a wake up call for me. It might not have been the kindest year of my life, but not the worst either…
(I know I talk about 2017 as if it’s 2018 tomorrow! I’m just reflecting over my life and other stuff… a lot).
Now I want to hear how 2017 has treated you until today?
It’s been fairly good for me so far. The English weather has been crap this summer but I’ve stayed positive. I’m looking forward to Christmas. I hope I have a big fun Christmas this year.
2017 has been pretty awful so far. Full of extreme stress, bad medication experiences, mental/emotional setbacks, my rat died, and now I’m really overwhelmed with accelerated classes and a job while trying to keep up with health appointments. The one good thing is I got my bachelor’s degree. But the year isn’t over yet, there is still time for things to improve!! I am hoping for the best.
I quit smoking, lost weight, quit alcohol, got double clients, bought nice shoes… traveled to 3 different countries.
But it has been stressful. Talking to myself most of the time… anxiety, anger, depression. The winter was the worse by far. I was crying relentlessly for days…
Now I found a better medication combination. Still struggling with the negatives and lack of purpose or enjoyment. These things should not bother me but they do.
2017 has had a few difficulties for me. (1.) My food stamps have been cut in half, which is going to decrease my pocket money a little. (2.) They pay me to mow the lawn, but for a long time we didn’t have a working lawn mower, so I missed out on earning some money before it got hot, and the grass was almost waist high when I finally did get to mow. (3.) I found out I had lost a lot of strength when I tried to lift weights.
The good side. (1.) I just did a light workout, so I feel good, and I think I can get the strength I lost back. (2.) I’ve written a few short stories I’m pleased with. (3.) I feel good right now, so all is right with the world.
Most of my happiness comes from my job actually so this is not so good. And since the beginning of 2017, I have not been happy at all at my job, so. But I try to say to myself that at least I have a job.
For the rest of 2017, I wish to find a solution for all the bad antipsychotic side effects I’m having. I also want to work on the many psychological problems I have since childhood.
I really hope that the rest of 2017 will be the best possible for everyone of you!!!
I started to have hope that I would one day become financially independent and get a bachelors degree cuz I got my acceptance letters into four universities around January and February. I was thinking my life was over and I’d never accomplish anything after my diagnosis. I’m starting to think about suicide less often although I still think about it somewhat frequently. I got my associates degree back in May. I could get a bachelors degree in accounting in 2 years but I’m thinking it would probably be better to go for two and a half years so that I get better grades.
Well, around the beginning of the year, my Mum was doing chemotherapy for treatment for Hodgkin’s lymphoma that came back last fall after being in remission for years. During one of the treatments, her treatment team had to go back into the hospital for a spell. Then, she had to have radiation treatment, so I had to put some of my own activities, mainly volunteering, on hold so I could drive her back and forth from the hospital. The dysphorias that I’d been having continued into the spring some because I missed a lot of evening medication. To make a long story short, it’s been a wild ride. But hey, that’s life!
When I was cured in 2013, I became so happy. I have been so much happy from 2013 to 2017 because I was healthy for the first time since 2001!
But by the beginning of summer, I realized that I had no friends and girlfriend and that it would really be difficult for me to get any because of my psychological problems. So since this time I feel unhappy. I wonder if I should feel happy for what I have…
@anubis Friends are kind of useless. I mean, yes, it’s nice to have someone to talk to. But they’re not necessary. And for the girlfriend part… you’ll find her! I’m sure you will. It’s never too late.
2017 has had it’s ups and downs…it’s been a long grueling summer here in Oklahoma so I would say I am looking forward to the Fall and Winter months…here comes the holidays !! yayyy.
@anubis You’re not old at all! (Except my dad is 39, turning 40 this year too ) You’ve got more than half of your life ahead of you!
I’m glad you’re healthy, though. You were ill for a long time and you’ve come a long way.
Like I said, she will turn up like a butterfly on your shoulder when you’re not aware.
@anubis It is! I know more about life than most 18-year olds! Joke aside.
Yeah, he was very young. My mum was 23, so she wasn’t very old either. Though my grandma was 18 when she had mum, so I guess it runs in the family to be young when you have your first child! Haha.
But, I am going to be at least 25. I want to be done with my studies first, so I can have a well-paid job. I grew up where neither of my parents really had the education to get a well-paid job and I don’t want my children to grow up with that…
I’m just reflecting over my life and other stuff… a lot).
I wonder if I should feel happy for what I have… 
I have been totally sick from 23 to 36 years old.
How about that?! Is it a young 18 years old person giving wise advises to an old man?! 
It’s great to have a young dad!