my year has been pretty hard and if i wasn’t stable as i am i would have sunk like a stone lol,
i am very lucky to be on a good med for me and able to do so much because of this and i have recently been put on a new anxiety med that is helping even more (i think) and its looking like next year is going to be good too ‘hoping/praying’
bad stuff-
but last year was mental, i would say i was forced out of college because of certain unforseen circumstances in February, then my Dad died in July, my mum is having a tough time now as well the last 3 months as well.
positive stuff-
remained stable, went on 2 holidays Florida in May and another place in October, started my counselling course, started new med for anxiety, looking forward to next year.
been pretty bad. i was in the psych ward in january…lived in a group home for a bit, then overdosed on klonopin, went to rehab and living in a sober home the last 5 months. but i think 2015 will be good. the last 6 months of 2013 was the best 6 months of my life, but 2014 has pretty much sucked. but should be getting an apartment soon. but on the bright side i think i finally found a med combo that works. o well.
Good? Uhhh mostly friend related stuff was good. Watched the show Over the Garden Wall with friends and loved it, watched the first two seasons of Hannibal w friends and loved them (even though the shows both sort of fed some of my false beliefs, whoops) Other than that…nothing really I guess. I really like the friends I’ve made in college. If I didn’t have them it would just be one giant stress-fest. I liked Christmas (at home and at school, at school we did Secret Santa and sang carols together, lots of fun) and stuff…some birthdays…oh! Also therapy! Forgot about that. First started going to therapy this year for my psychosis. Has it been helpful? Eh. It’s helpful for me to vent anyways. She hasn’t really taught me any new ways to manage it.
I guess also the progress I’ve made on my emotional health that I’ve posted about before, like finally learning how to stop flashbacks before I get sucked in.
Bad?
It was just a very, very stressful year. Super hard classes this semester. Last semester wasn’t so bad, but still. And I had to spend my whole summer taking classes (and this summer too). Made grades much lower than I wanted in chemistry and calculus. Went through numerous episodes. Lot of crying in showers on my part. Pain, death wishes, etc. A couple of my friends were also really struggling, which wasn’t easy for me either. In all, this definitely hasn’t been my favorite year. Also grandparents struggling a lot. I still care about them, even if I feel like we haven’t really been as close since early middle school before my depression started. My one grandma had a stroke (and is recovering really well, but we know she probably won’t live too much longer…and my grandpas going to be alone…) and my other grandma is still struggling with depression and alcoholism and just is nothing like who she used to be, and my grandad isn’t really helpful with that, more oblivious than anything.
Crazy, crazy all around. Then again, so much goes on in life in just one week. Going over everything in one year would take ages haha so I’ll just cut it here. I hope 2015 will be better!!
My year has been pretty good. A lot of sleep but when I finally get out of bed and am rested and awakened I have been ok. Sorry to hear about your Father.
It was good, but id rate it as bad for one reason. I had first episode of psychosis at march and was put on medication. So for a whole year i had to deal with the side effects and all, but i´ve been feeling good otherwise.
Hopefully pdoc will wean me off medication in 2015 and hopefully i´ll remain well. I really belive it was brief psychosis.
Well, I fulfilled my goal of keeping what I got. I still live in my studio after 5 years, I still have my car, and I still have my job.
Bad news: A couple of people asked me out to coffee and I turned them down. I think the invitations still stand though. I took two classes this year and I got a B+ and an A. Early in the year my bosses house flooded so he put me in charge while he was gone taking care of that.
It’s been a great year!! The best part is I met my awesome boyfriend in April. He has stood by me through everything. I love him with all that I am. There have been things that I’ve lost, but have gained better things along the way. My '87 Honda Civic finally died, but my mom’s work gave her a new car so I got hers. Now I have a car that has a radio and AC and heat. I had to say goodbye to my therapist. I have a new therapist who has her doctorate and tons of experience. I had to say goodbye to my pdoc. I found a new pdoc who finally found the right med combo for me.
There have been bad things along the way too. In August I was hospitalized for psychosis. When we adjusted how I take my Geodon I had the week from hell. I thought I would have to be hospitalized again. I also had to say goodbye to my favorite doctor, but the good news is she said we can keep in touch through email.
Every bad experience opens the door for something positive, you just have to look for it. Recently my boyfriend put power steering fluid where my brake fluid goes because he thought they were the same thing. I felt frustrated that he did that because the mechanic said it would be $225 to fix. But then I got a call from my mechanic who said my brake fluid was low in the first place because I had a leak. My boyfriend’s mistake could have saved my life. I wouldn’t have thought to take it to the mechanic just because the brake fluid was low.
Even this illness seems all bad, but is it? The more you struggle and fight the stronger your character becomes. Think of all of the karma we’re working off. I believe I wouldn’t be as mature as I am now if it weren’t for years of fighting.
Its been a good year.
I’ve let go of a lot of anger… and bad / toxic habits. (smoking and holding a grudge, being angry / self hating about the past.)
Started school, got out and involved with life around me, started taking care of myself more… learning how to self manage better.
reconnected with an old friend and some family… a friend turned into a girlfriend and we’re still together. I’ve tried some new things and I hope to keep growing.
There are still some big things that need to be worked on. (brother / sister boundaries… letting go a bit more…) But next year… right?
Celebrate in all we’ve over come and good luck to us all for next year.
This year…hmmmm. Well not all good but not all bad. I a very fortunate to have a boyfriend for over the last 5 years who for the most part treats me like gold, although he does not understand mental illness, he knows the signs now of when I am hearing voices and when I am really struggling. there are not many men who would stand by my side through what I go through the way he does.
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physically it has been a rough year because the 5 hour surgery I had on my back made me worse instead of better, but I am being a trooper about it, I can only pray, and possibly look into a different procedure to undo the damage. And thankfully the blood clot in my leg, although they have not checked on it in awhile, seems to be the same, so that is good news too.
mentally I seem pretty stable and on the right med combo for a change, I have not been this stable for a long time. Of course I have ny good days and bad, but that is to be expected. And I do not seem to be having deep bouts of depression like I have in the past, so that is a real plus.
Sadly, another years has goneby that I have not seen my daughter, and only once I have spoken to her. But I am holding out hope that one day she will come around.
I guess I can say it has been a half decent year, and I hope for an even better year next year!
Its been a mixed year for me. I started it out in hospital (admitted on the day after New Year’s, till the end of Jan) and then it was up and down on my meds, but I eventually stabilised. I had some times of stress, like in the June-Sept period when I relapsed, but I came back up again. Moved house in September and made our new house a home. Tried to send my two books to publishers, mostly without success, but still trying. I’m hoping that in 2015 I will find publishers for them, God willing.
