I don’t know how to describe my depression. It came long before my psychosis but once my depression faded away I knew it. My depression had physical symptoms, like pain where my eye bags would be but I don’t have eye bags, low energy, stressed. didn’t care about anything, I felt sad sometimes but more like lack of joy, rarely laughed, I just felt depressed, not myself.
I don’t have negative symptoms I don’t think, or if I do they are not nearly as serious as my depression was. I am a little emotionally flat, but I do feel like doing things sometimes, when I was depressed I didn’t want to do anything. I wasn’t suicidal but when I thought about dying I thought about relief.