I feel like maybe a 3 still cant focus on tv or too much. Gonna stretch and keep hitting them dumbbells every second day. My mind cant seem to relax. Do any of you ladies or gents feel like your mind is at ease? I cant stop thinking about current events. I wanna take my clozopine but im gonna wait until 9:30 this is torture
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3 today. 8 normally.
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I’m having trouble putting a number on it but my best friend’s brother in law and his wife know I’m struggling with stress about work. Someone from the military told them about me and they’re judging me. They know what I say on here and to others privately, and judge me for it. I’m very frustrated and want to quit my job.
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You don’t sound well. Are you on meds?
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3 lately probably. usually a 6. stressed. 10 would be perfect. feel monitored. heard voices telling me scary things. feel monitored. i feel very on edge. I’m on the verge of deciding to never leave the house again. Voices told me I was going to d*e. I have to hold it together but its taking everything I have.
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The sz/sz-a = 8.5. The other stuff = 5.5
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It’s right up there
To much going on
Cant seem to get rest bite
Each week I am being chipped away at
It’s not sustainable
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I really don’t have it that bad..
But I’m still only gonna give this mental illness 4 out of 10 stars.
I don’t hear voices, hallucinate or have delusions on these meds..
But, I still feel like I’ve been robbed of a normal life in a sense…
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I’d say a 3, I have constant auditory and visual hallucinations which are miserable.
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It fluctuates. Some days are better, even good-ish, like a 8 or a 9. But the dips make every effort seem pointless. At my lowest I hate everything and everyone, that’s definitely a 1.
They say trauma changes how our brain works. I’ve had no traumatic events in the past. Instead, my brawls with voices during episodes ended in a loss for me every time.
I take my meds now and the voices are gone. However the damage remains. It resurfaces when I least expect it. I usually sleep such moments away, but it’s only a temporary solution.
I’ve no intention of quitting. However the magnitude of this illness makes me suspect the universe isn’t neutral - like scientists have postulated - but aware and, for unknown reasons, malevolent toward some of us. Scary.
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8.5 these days, 0 when socializing
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Most days about 5.5. It use to be like a 3 all the time but making med changes and moving to a more peaceful place changed that. When im really doing well its like a 7. This is usually when im enjoying my projects or after therapy.
When dealing with people its like 3…
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I take my meds everyday without fail. When I tell my pdoc my thoughts, I’m always told I’m delusional. My belief about the military etc never changes regardless. I still tell my Dr though and we have a good relationship. She’s never mean to me.
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I’d say between 6 and 7, on good days it’s even 8 or 9. On very bad days—below 5, but not lower than 4 
The day before yesterday I had a totally suicidal day, thoughts were spinning, jumping around in my head – but for me, just like it hits fast, it also “slides off” quickly. Today is actually quite a normal day.. essentially, not counting delusions or suspicion or anxiety, I’m very… impulsive and there’s a lot of me – thoughts jump around, emotions sometimes change uncontrollably.
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I would say fairly high like an eight or nine…don’t have much issues mentally.
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Maybe a 8/10 . It’s hard to say. It’s not as great as it’s been the last month or so. But it’s still much better than it has been most of the last 20 years or so years.
As for why, I don’t have nearly as much brain fog. I only sleep for 13 hours, so i still have a bit of the day to get things done. I have enough energy to work out and focus to read etc.
Hugs to everyone struggling right now.
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4 and a half
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I’d say a 7? Barely any positive symptoms on olanzapine, but I’ve got some other sh!t.
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3 to 4 at the start of the day, 5-6 in the evening usually(if I slept). I’m on a low dose of meds which is good, but the insomnia is wearing me down.
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Today is a 5. I’m home and I have my cat.
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