Genetics
Social phobia
Alcoholism
Depression
Anxiety
Stress
Delusions
Paranoia
I could say that they all add up to one goal…basically in that order…schizophrenia
I believe genetics loaded the gun and my teenage years pulled the trigger
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Kind of makes me wonder why. If it wasn’t genetic, then how did I wind up like this? Plus, I’m alone in the family. No other family member can relate.
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I’d say it was probably drugs, an overactive imagination, and going to a church camp to be a councilor a month after doing way to many drugs one night.
That’s my thought but it could have happened regardless
I understand how sometimes it doesn’t give me peace, but it does in the long run. I can’t wrap my mind around the idea that things are random chances. I’m not expecting you to believe the same things I believe, but it is what it is for me.
As for working, when I was working handling my own I felt more independent, and felt like I was a productive member of society. I look at some of my family and friends that work and some have multiple jobs and I can’t even handle one, while I’m sitting at home collecting Social Security which barely gets me by each month, I still wind up relying on my parents most of the time for things. I feel like a burden.
After watching day time shows like Dr. Phil, it doesn’t help when calls people who don’t work and stay at home with their parents beyond the age of 18, making the parents pay for stuff moochers, Then I start feeling low about myself because I’m 34 and live at home with my parents, and don’t work and sometimes have to rely on them for support financially.
Writing is my escape. I think if I just keep writing and some day finish a book and become a published author making enough money to support myself it would be something. Because right now I feel I have nothing.So when I go days without writing because of poor concentration and negative voices it makes me feel low inside because I feel like right now writing is all I have.
I got it by osmosis.
Trauma in the womb multiplied by traumas out of the womb.
I have ZERO history of drug use, besides alcohol - which was of legal age (21) and stopped drinking a long time before my first entering of psychosis. I was an avid weight lifter, worked part-time, and ate plentifully. I don’t know how I obtained this disorder at the time I did, but perhaps it was just a ticking time bomb from all of the traumas - which is my best guess.
I have good genetics & good chemical balance inside the brain, which makes me think the dopamine & genetic theories are inaccurate in my case.
My mom is super sympathetic, but she just doesn’t understand how hard it is.
It felt like this line from Joan Baez - ‘The deepening of a sadness broke finally into madness.’
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porn caused it. 10 years ago
it was a schizofairy (little blighter) lol
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my gene pool has some inbreeding in it because generations of my people have consciously isolated themselves from world for decades at a time and even without the genetic manipulation , the social ramifacations are possibly worse than the genetic.
Think about the family
I believe my faulty genetics (as seen in other family members) were triggered by childhood immune system problems and later by using drugs.
hehehe i needed that relief
For me, I have no one in my family that has ever had this disease. I have also never done illegal drugs or anything like that before.
When I was born I was not breathing, I honestly believe this may have had alittle part in my developing it.
Then as a child I was really shy and would almost not talk to anybody. By the time I was a teen, I kind of became antisocial. I think I learned to block people out as a defense mechanism of sort which probably helped my sort of predisposition to this disease come along. What pushed me over the edge to my breakdown was working 70 hours a week, barely getting sleep, and not eating good.
My brothers are half-brothers and my dad a stepdad. Only thing I know about my real father was that he acted very erratically when he was with my mother. I’m guessing it’s genes cuz nobody in my mom’s half of the family has mental illness before an elderly age generally.
I’m guessing its genetics, mental illness runs in the family. Although there’s no history of schizophrenia there is a lot of other mental disorders.
I guess genetics. I got that low IQ, bipolar cousin of mine, I guess. Still trying to figure it out. It’s on my mom’s brother side though. Probably will never know. I got a lot of missing time. Missing sentience.
I believe I’m not 100% delusional. I believe in the theory of gravity, for example.
I’m starting to think religion is a delusion. Although I’ve seen some weird ■■■■, experienced weird ■■■■ on both sides.
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