I’m extremely jealous of my sister.
I am never going to find a boyfriend I know it.
Because I am not adequate girlfriend material.
But she is.
Instead of feeling jealous what can I do.
Btw she can be mean to me, so why the f u c k or how the f u c k am I meant to be happy for her instead of feeling jealous and distant to her.
BTW I know I’m not gf material, it isn’t really a debating matter.
Up your attitude a bit, and you’ll snag a nice guy. Men like confident women…at least I do. It’s very sexy.
Maybe I should not be jealous because…
I should not want to be bf material if the reason I’m missing out on that is due to things I have no control over, thus, things that are not really my true identity. Such as the shape of physical body features.
I should want to be loved by a partner for things I have control over. Such as my thoughts and passions.
This is my identity.
I need to Ingrain this into my head.
I don’t know how to be confident with men.
Let him think he’s in control, while you secretly wear the pants. 
What do you mean you’re not girlfriend material? Sure you are. You’re cute, nice, you have a sense of humor, you’ve never come across as unintelligent. You’re friendly and as a bonus, you have a job and you’re independent. You’re the perfect girlfriend!
Thankyou for the sweet compliments but I’m not really all that. Men are repelled by me irl.
Told my buddy just last night about when I posted about AssBusters 2…and you said it was the Citizen Kane of porn movies!
Oh man, we laughed! I think that’s your funniest line to date! 
I find that hard to believe. And everything I said about you is true. Give yourself some credit.
It is true.
I’m trying hard not to care
Lol
You’re cute and honest and bright. You’ll probably find your beau when you least expect it. That’s how it usually goes down.
Well thankyou. Patrick.
You haven’t seen me naked though. Haha.
Anyway it’s okay.
‘joy is immense accceptance’
Meaning accept my flaws and work with it.
Play the cards I got.
Lol.
You fall in love with person’s face and personality first, I believe.
That naked part is just a bonus.
My sister does not think I’m nice.
I told her via watsapp the other day that I fear she will use me.
I also told her that I feel she’s not truly interested in me.
I also told her that I feel she and the guy I fancied would be attracted to each other.
And I told her that I need to stop associating with her because I find these feelings and fears very exhausting.
She wasn’t happy.
Irl, I fall in love with how someone looks at me first…especially if they have beautiful eyes.
It is incredibly powerful.
Well I think it is often just lust. Lol.
freedom is key. live and let live. dont put yourself down never. gotta control that. also key. be yourself and if someone likes it, great. dont try to be somebody else or incorporate some kind of persona. honesty and truth are also key.
I don’t know, but maybe to understand it all. I am so sorry you need to. But understanding your suffering you need to understand. You know now what you need to comprehend. Others never will. Good luck.
Enjoy your good times to the maximums and wish the bad days will be over soon.
You’re beautiful and you will find a guy, don’t worry. The person may not be perfect, but they will accept you as you are. You’re gonna have to do the same for them, but that’s love. When you find happiness in yourself and stop looking for it, love will show up for you. Find what is loveable in yourself and be happy with that, when people see that they will want to be with you. And be patient, these things take time. Don’t worry so much, you’re good 
