How big part is this illness to you in your life?
This illness and seeing myself as a inferior person is a big part of my life,its a little better but its still a big part,so I might need to work on “nobody is better than anyone”,HAHA
It is the central fact of my life. I don’t feel inferior, though. Just different.
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Yes, unfortunately it’s a central part of my life too. But maybe it’s ‘fortunately’, as I’m taking it seriously and trying to stay on meds and find the right dose etc. So having it as a central part of my life might be good.
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Yea,that’s positive,hope everything will go well even with the illness
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Yes it is my life but I manage it best I can not easy sometimes but I always keep hope
Positive thinking helps
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It used to be 100% of my life…
But little by little… I try not to let it be the only thing in my life…
You seem like a righteous dude gtx. That’s better than a lot of people ill or not.
The world needs you buddy.
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Bahaha,thanks Bryant it must be good to have you around : )
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Thanks…you too : D
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Enough to bring me to a website/forum devoted to it! Lol!. The psychosis isn’t bad anymore but the depression and anxiety and some of the other symptoms are still there.
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it seemed to be unbearable in the beginning, but little by little, it gets better. I sometimes miss the days when I was 20 yrs old and younger, before the auditory hallucinations started happening. What could I have done differently? etc. But the important thing I’m learning is what can I do now to make my life better, with this factor of life. I use to feel inferior, but my mom told me something important: she said that there is something wrong with everyone. so true! it’s not what you’ve got, but how you work with what you’ve got.
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Its 100% of my life. I have been thinking about it non stop. Over the past week i’ve laid of it a bit but it still is 100%. One thing thats bothering me is how long do i stay on meds and how long do i taper for. Two consultant psychiatrists have told me take the meds two years even though i’m a multiple episode patient. This is sort of the final time for me being compliant with the medication because if it all fails this time i give up.
Been there, done that, bought the t shirt, still ended up on meds, but a reduced dose, which might be border line tolerable instead of being full on torture. Hang in there till CBD meds come out. They might be a game changer tolerance wise.
Edit: they might be out as early as 2 years from now anyway.
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Yeah i know what i’m up against, i’ve had a total of 5 episodes full blown which have landed me in the hospital within days. I don’t find my episodes torture but theres the risk of hurting someone and also feeling like an arse taking up a bed again in the hospital. My plan this time is to slowly lower the meds and bring on a mild episode and then maybe get therapy and take it from there.
Like crimby said… we’re different
Yeah i hope the CBD meds reach the market, and i hope they are better not just for me for everyone else too. I’m not getting my hopes up we will be lucky if it reachs the market and surely it can’t be perfect. It’s well overdue a good antipsychotic.
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this illness has taken over my life. Every day I wake up thinking about how I have this illness. I went to church last week, and the pastor was basically pointing out that if you obsess about people instead of God, you will start to have feelings like I have, about being a failure and worthless, and just worse than everyone else in every single way. 
I wish I could beat all my negative feelings by focusing more on God, and I think for a short period of time, while I also had hope for the future, I did, but then the depression came back, along with focusing on what other people would think of me. I go between two extremes, as my brother pointed out. Sometimes I think that I’m going to be able to do everything just as well as I did before getting schizophrenia, and then other times I curl up in a corner and feel like I’m going to accomplish absolutely nothing besides eating and sleeping. I spend a lot of time worrying about becoming homeless because of this illness. Before this illness I just assumed I was going to be successful, and never have to worry about money. I also worry that because of this illness I’ll be a bad car driver and get in some accident, where I’m quadriplegic and even more dependent on my family than I even am now. I think about how I’m already 25 years old, and still barely holding on at a community college. I never imagined I would get something like this illness. Now that I have it, I’ve become incredibly pessimistic about making friends or having a social life outside of my family, and the only thing I look forward to is getting a job and dying. Everyday I wake up hoping that I’ll get pancreatitis or kidney failure from the abilify, even though it is a long shot. I was a little bit suicidal growing up from school life, but not like this. I’m probably not seriously suicidal like I was last year, so don’t worry about me. I’ve got family and food and a home.
I’m not “a schizophrenic.” “I have schizophrenia.” Big difference. 
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With medication and oversleeping this illness is not much.
When I try to completly overcome this illness it becomes to much for me and I darn need a maricle.