My first drug was Abilify, I got it while staying at home. On 15 mg I had crazy visions, and violent imaginings. Visiting a friend, I noticed a pair of scissors. I felt a strong desire to put them in his eyes (I DIDN’T). We made pasta, and I wanted to throw the water, on him. I couldn’t take it, and biked to the Acute Mental Ward, close by. They put me on 30 Mg and, Every-thing got worse.
The really bad ■■■■ happened on 45 Mg. 2 Hours after Meds, I got 2 Hour long erections, and, was Hyper-aroused. This side-effect is called ‘hyper-sexuality’. It also raised my prolactin, which causes maternal instinctual behaviour, in mammals. Because of this, I saw razor-sharp images of babies, and fetuses. It lasted 3½ weeks, after which, the medication stopped.
I didn’t tell any-one, for four years, after which, I told, a nurse.
Maybe these side-effects are rare, but, the Docs didn’t warn me. I wanted to tell people, if they have really weird Side-effects, they should tell their Docs, immediately, so a better treatment can be found, a also - better Medicines could be developed, that, are safer.
I wanted to throw my-self, from the 10th floor, for 3½ weeks, it lasted. I’m alive Bc. my parents told docs, to stop. Then they put me on Risperdal, which made me gay. We really need better meds, and need to start complaining, to some-one. Cigarettes help, at least, for me.
Risperdal had me thinking I was gay too, I think it was a combination of HOCD and the suppression of my normal libido. In any case, that was how I felt.
I’m glad you did not take your life! If you ever feel in danger, go and seek medical help.