About 3 weeks ago I had my first visual hallucination in which holograms appeared in my room. They formed from shapes made from the fold of my blanket and out of thin air. Many of the characters I knew as acquaintances and friends from my life and they were very detailed, although most were miniature replications of these people. I stayed up 10 hours watching these holograms play out scenes as they communicated with me and with each other. Large hands formed around me holding a device that floated in mid air and turned. I looked on my arm and holographic bracelets and jewelry were around my wrist. It was a very intricate hallucination and was fascinating to watch. A red laser box appeared on my floor as a little man climbed on its outskirts. Again, last night after going straight into astral projection while in a waking aware state I floated up in my room and saw a dead woman’s body under my bed and laid next to a man in which I knew as I watched him change into other people I know. He got shorter and shorter until it turned into a gurgling baby wrapped into a blanket. As one eye awoke, I saw a hologram of a person signaling others to come in. I turned to my door and a very large figure with long hair holding a staff pointed to a small girl with long dark hair brushing it. I was so confused at the meaning of this all. Most of my closed eye visualizations for the past month have been of people having sex then subsequently be cut in half or dismembered by a sword, knife, or scissors. Very weird, I’m just taking it all in as my personal interactive television in which there is no remote to change the channel.
Have you been diagnosed and put on meds?
Had one of those, it was a woman. Looked very similar to the image R2-D2 projects except the woman didn’t look like Leia. She looked to be dressed similar to a statue of the virgin Fatima from the Catholic religion (the one that appeared to three children who went to tell the pope). Really looked like someone I grew up with. Happened in between about 2 to 4 years ago. Seriously I was like, “I’m too tired, Princess Leia.” (Without the Princess Leia part, that was added for humor) I was half asleep, it past 12 AM and left a good feeling. Was placed on a hold that year as I was having moments i’d lose touch with reality. Such is life. Was probably brought on by wanting to see someone who comforts me daily when I realize that person is doing well and has a a beautiful family going. Helps me continue. Remains the only visual hallucination I have experienced that I know of.
As far as yours, it sounds similar to having a nightmare but being awake. A lot of symptoms I suffer seem to be similar to having a dream while awake, luckily I have been lucid for a good while now.
Sexual images followed by the people being dismembered would worry me quite a lot. Sex and violence are some powerful triggers in our minds, but together I feel the two pollute what separately are relatively pure instincts. Hope you feel better soon.
Maybe you could use that energy and try making a hologram of the experiences you are having. There are some great videos on youtube. Just search how to make a hologram #ArtTherapy
This is a gift you just need to figure out how to use it. Blessings to you.