In psychosis I would hit myself, especially in my head with closed fist because of the voices… there were like a million of them on the height of the psychosis… hit really hard and my head would hurt. I also would throw my head against the wall because of it. Cut myself with kitchen knife (it is why i removed my knives).
I was really afraid in the psychosis and the voices overwhelmed me.
I got rid of the knives, but managed to cut a tile of the bathroom wall with a hammer to hurt myself.
I cannot get rid of my tiles, but…
How can I prevent all this from happening? in psychosis I don’t feel pain, so that is what I am not afraid of, but I fear hurting myself again.
Am still afraid that the voices will come back and make me do these things again… knives are gone, maybe I should put the hammer in my garage, just for my own safety. Lost quite a bit of furniture when I smashed it with a hammer who happened to be in a toolbox in a closet.
I do know that when I move I will never live inside a high rise because of jumping fears. These are the precautions I take when I am clear headed, because in psychosis I don’t know what I am doing, and that is frightening. I even looked for highrise building in my psychosis, and went all the way to the top, but they barred entry to the main roof. Lucky for me, as I might have jumped. I social engineered my way into that building, by saying I needed to visit a friend, and someone let me in.
Looking for a way to prevent all this self-harm… without having to hide things all the time… haven’t found something that works yet. The meds did not prevent me, they only calmed me down and relieve the voices.
Graphic descriptions of self harm are usually hidden. I realize that you are seeking help in this area so I don’t want to hide topic, so please try not to get too graphic and I will try to keep open for advice. Too early in am to make decisions like this .
Maybe you could find a med. that helps with this problem. I used to self mutilate, and I think it was the med’s that got me out of that frame of mind. I take Geodon and Seroquel. A lot of people swear by Geodon.
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