I always go off meds when I’m out of hospital. Been 3 months without an AP, and I quit the god awful lithium too.
Next target is 6 months of meds, and then 9 & 12 months.
2022 Summer to 2023 Summer I went 11 months no meds but relapsed.
I’m thinking to take legal action about the lithium. I don’t have bipolar and they were giving me an overdose of lithium when I was locked up.
Currently not entertaining delusions or voices. Not thinking too much about alternate realities or anything.
No negative symptoms I’m sure, but damn do I feel lazy/demotivated. I did leg day after 3 weeks last week and now tomorrow I spread my workouts badly again, so it will be chest and shoulders after 3 weeks. Can still make gains, but the progress will be slower unless I workout more often.
Finally just want to note that APs do not affect my symptoms whatsoever. I can be delusional on meds, and on meds I always heard voices in the same way I do currently. I am not a believer in the d2 hypothesis of sz. It’s a scam by big pharma to maximize profit. They don’t care about us.
That’s fortunate to go 11 months before having a relapse.
I stopped my AP not long after starting one, with my new diagnosis of schizophrenia. Within five days, I was very paranoid and doing very religious things like constant prayers for protection from evil and calling prayer lines incessantly. I was also going in bed a lot, like I was before an AP. It was only going to get worse from there.
I’m sure, shortly thereafter, I would be hearing my neighbors voices telling me it’s a psychic attack again. That was the reason I went to see a psychiatrist. I couldn’t take it anymore after six years. My symptoms were getting worse, and I wasn’t making any sense.
I can’t go without an AP. It’d be nice to get a break.
I recently am guessing I am fully depleted of testosterone because I can still get it up but never orgasm…old gun isn’t working anymore I think…too scared of supplement testosterone because I heard it always causes cancer.
I think trt is safe. Exogenous testosterone can still cause the heart muscle to grow larger maybe. Unless it’s in a normal range? Idk. I thought about try before. I wanna see if I can get my T levels high naturally.