Hi, I just found this forum and I thought it might be helpful to get some feedback on some of my delusions. I feel like I’m being watched every thought, internet post, and action being observed by someone. Every time I have a new idea it seems like the television or radio has a hidden message to communicate with me on it. I can’t figure out if its god trying to talk to me through messages in my timeline or what it is. I see messages on the television, in movies, on licence plates over the radio and on signs on the side of the road. I remember having a night terror where an alien carved the back of my head open and planted a chip in it, maybe that’s some how related… I can’t figure out who or what is talking to me.
Hi Stacks,
Welcome to the forum. I share similar delusions, but a couple of decades of medication and treatment have allowed me to get back to a mostly normal life, with only minimal disruption from these positive symptoms. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia, disorganized type. I also have a touch of autism, which adds additional challenges to maintaining relationships.
Are you currently seeking medical attention for your issues? If not, I would advise doing so.
Best,
Pixel.
I’m in a community counseling program. I meet with a counselor once a week and see a psychiatrist every few months to try new meds as none of them have worked so far. I honestly believe my hallucinations are real at this point but my counselor assures me they’re not. I wish I could find a medication that gets rid of them, I’m sick of being harassed by demons and called a sinner by angels and judged by god.
It took me a couple of years to find meds that worked well. Not what you want to hear, but this is a sometimes lengthy process. You have developed a fair degree of insight into your symptoms already and it sounds like you are doing all the right things so far to work towards recovery. This really increases the chances of better recovery, sooner, so I tip my hat to you. Just hang in there and keep doing what you’re doing. Things will get better and a great future is still within your reach. 
Again, welcome to the community.
Pixel.
Do not let it bother you so. Think of it this way, some words sound very familiar, like meat and meet. They have different meanings. Sometimes people in advertisement market ideas with innuendo. So many people speak with innuendo pertaining to sexual desire, it is sad that people think somehow others won’t notice. Do not let it bother you so. When innuendo is a lie it seems to bother people who try to be honest. There is a such thing as paranoia (it occurs to everyone, sometimes I’m a meanie and prank a few friends during a get together like, “Oh shit! Your parents are home.” or “Oh shit, here come the cops.”). However you are experiencing a symptom of schizophrenia.