Every time I get on my phone and do things, I wonder what the men are thinking about it
Every time I watch tv I wonder what they’re saying about my choices.
Every time I read a book I wonder if they’re judging me for what I chose.
I feel like they’re writing it all down and keeping a file on me that others can read and decide if I need to be confronted and taken in and questioned for it
I feel like they watch my husband and me during our intimate times and it’s really hard to relax while worrying about that.
I keep thinking there are cameras throughout my house and that all my smart electronics are hacked so they can watch my every move
It’s so hard to just live life and not worry about all that.
I’m sorry you’re going through all that. I wish I could say something to help, but I deal with similar issues.
Voices in my head offer commentary on stuff I read, watch, listen to. Sometimes, I’ll buy stuff from the store any wonder if there are listening devices in it. I’ve torn up gifts because I was certain coworkers implanted listening devices in them…I found nothing. I’m not a celebrity or anything, so I don’t know why I think this way.
Before I took meds the voices were full paragraphs of talking, so now they’re not as intense on the meds, and I get a lot of random words with a few sentences. I don’t own a webcam because I think hackers might get past my antivirus and watch me through the webcam, and also record what I say via the microphone.
You could try and get rid of anything that has a microphone in it. That might get rid of some of the paranoia.
I doubt my post will help, but know that you’re not alone (or maybe that’s the wrong thing to say because we want to be more alone, right! Haha).
Thanks so much for telling me your story @anon70814080 . It really help to know that someone else who takes their meds goes through this constant battle. I hope you get relief
Stay strong, it can get better!!
Me, i have my worries since my dx all day long, i am affected even physically by them even on meds…
I was very angry before, that the meds didnt help me more… But i am on my feet too, because of the zyprexa too, so keep taking your treatment pls…
I try now with efforts, but i feel lonely too on that, cause it takes a lot of courage to try to do it on my own… but anyway.
Prayers for you, dont be hard on yourself and yes, we many have been through hell, yeap…
You can improve, try to believe that pls. Huggies
but anyway.
