This ■■■■ just doesnt stop. I can’t allow myself to believe what I hear. It makes it seem so real. I’ve grown more comfortable with it, but it just seems so real. It leaves me looking for clues becoming distracted and vigilant. I see barely any room for me to live an ordinary life. I had become undone and had to rebuild myself, and after nights like last night I am afraid I can fall back into that terrible place where I have no identity and am forced to accept the worst portions of human nature. All from the suggestions of this potential telepathic conspiracy. It seems like they hear it also. A old friend passed by my car when I was in a lot and I said his name in my mind he stopped and turned around looking freaked out or interupted, but didn’t see me. Evidence of telepathy, evidence of thought broadcasting. I could just chock it up to coincidence, but I have dozens of the experiences every day. It just goes on and on and on.
On a happier note I think I have found stable ground in my isolation a platform to defend myself from voices. Through distraction and not listening and trying to think unrelated thoughts doing all I can to not feed them. If I can rid myself of this self-consciousness that the voices reflect in my isolation then maybe I will have the clarity of mind to phase out this telepathy. I have had success in blocking it in the past or ignoring it to the point it was virtually gone. This is such a battle though.
Good luck to all of you in your struggles.
