ive realized i used to do this a lot leading up to my psychotic break, i really enjoyed talking and singing to myself as it made me feel in control of my feelings of loneliness while i was isolated. in a way, when i verbalized my thoughts to myself, i felt like my own friend and had to rely on no one. i found that very empowering! conversation with real people, on the other hand, i found disempowering in general, though i would talk my brother’s ear off on occasion, while he would aggressively ignore my ramblings
when he left, i would go several months at a time only hearing my own voice and the voices of my favorite musicians and podcasters whom i was constantly listening to on my ipod.
ive just read on wikipedia that people with schizotypal pd, which i think i have, sometimes talk to themselves.
i think talking to oneself is a behavior many people associate with mental illness, and because of the stigma attached to MI, they are ashamed to talk to themselves ever, thinking it means they might be crazy or that other people will judge them harshly for doing it.
right now, if i didn’t have poverty of speech, i think i would talk to myself very frequently for the reasons i’ve mentioned above. i might not even come to the forum anymore, as verbalizing rather than writing down my thoughts would be enough for me to feel grounded and sane.
I talk to myself all the time, most of it in my head, plenty externalized. I have conversations in my head all day. It’s never quiet. My bf has caught me just talking out loud before under my breath because I just externalize my thoughts sometimes for no reason.
to have a consistently running internal monologue is a blessing. at least for me, it helps me to organize my thoughts, and in a way, control what i think. i don’t have those abilities anymore; i have poverty of thought
to talk to myself freely right now would represent being freed from the limitations forced on me by my symptoms. i have a fractured and inconsistent train of thought, reflecting an inability to organize my thoughts; disorganization which is reflected in my behavior and speech and which makes it hard for me to achieve my goals
accordingly, to me right now, it seems that this development is all i need to become my true self again
I gave myself a stern lecture on breaking curfew last week and coming home to my apartment an hour late. So I grounded myself for 4 days but when I started crying I realized the punishment was too harsh and I relented and made it only 3 days. I guess I’m a damn crybaby.who always has to have his way.
I asked my doctor about this she said all people talk to themselves some just won’t admit it. It can be done out of boredom/isolation or just thinking out loud. My mother once said of course I talk to myself it’s the only way I get the right answers. lol
I talk to myself all the time. I’ll also talk to my cats. After many years of being alone I found my speaking ability declining, so I talk to the living things around me.