Does this makes you feel suicidal or not? Do you feel you are dealing with intelligence?
Yes. Thatās how Iād describe my relationships. No it doesnāt make me suicidal. I just kind of accepted it and moved on.
Oh yeah people betray me even in the smallest of things, after that itās all downhill from there. Mt wife is one of the few iv never felt betrayed by.
No but when Iām not well I feel everyone hates me which is what Iām feeling now. It does make me feel terrible.
I believe my life is a staged set and that I am being kept from the ārealā world. Therefore, I think virtually everyone around me, including family, is acting. They are acting like this is the real world (when itās not) and the are pretending I am not the famous subject of a brain study (which I am). In a way, it makes me feel betrayed because no one will be honest with me.
Well, I have a lot of concerns lately, financially speaking, what I will gonna do, where will I be? And if my Mother dies? I think one day everything will be different and people will steal me with the argument of my madness, they will not be there for me. So this is like ātotal betrayalā game in my mind. If I lose this person, my Mother, I am lonely and in their hands, without credibility, lonely and surrounded by ācannibalsā. I feel they hate me, they want to control me with their evilness and I watch every little āmoveā they make. It sounds like conspiracy, but believe me there is only one Mother, other people in family may not treasure so much as you might think, at least this is this way for me. I feel sad having this instead of a network of family support and this puts me down and hateful.
āHave you ever felt everyone around you is a traitor?ā
I can very quickly get those dangerous thoughts because of MI.
Do you really think itās mi or is it reality?
I always feel that wayā¦
Iām in business for myself, everyday dealing with people hoping to get something out of you, even if they are so call friends
I also feel the traitor thing sometimes. I find that opening up to people, not necessarily with the darkest secrets of our mind, but just sharing personal stuff with others is a good reality test ā some people out there really like us and want to be friends is what I found.
judy
itās my MI.
but regardless, those thoughts arenāt good.
But I have them all the time, I believe everyone hates everyone
believing that everyone hates everyone is not exactly the same as believing everyone is a traitor.
Yes, you are right about that I guess.
Sometimes I lose my belief in the goodness of the human race. I begin to think that people arenāt worth making sacrifices for. Sometimes I think people are no better than piranha.
I think that there are good people and bad people.
In most cases, it is difficult to rely on people other than your parents.