Have you always been different since you can remember? Were you rejected or bullied? Or did it happen suddenly the diagnosis?
I was always different and behaved different to my peers growing up, as a child, teen and then adult. Ive had rejection a lot and excluded. It hurts and believe me ive tried so hard to fit in with people at school or work etc. Its never worked for me i stand out like the oddball. Im not even sure if i fit in here on this forum? My hubby only treats me better now since ive been diagnosed sz. He used to call me names all the time before that.
I was never bullied but Iāve always been different. I didnāt have problems making one or two friends at a time, but i was painfully shy. I was lucky that i did well academically even as a young child cuz i think it had a protective effect being a teacherās pet. I was never one of the popular kidsā¦
I was always different but I still fit in to a degree until 7th grade. When I was in my twenties my dad pointed out that I started getting weird, quiet and withdrawn in seventh grade. It didnāt help that I skipped 8th grade and went right into high school after seventh grade when I was 13. Everybody was a year ahead of me and I had no friends and was hopeless at making any. I didnāt talk to anyone in high school except with a few exceptions. I kinda found my place in 12th grade when I kinda became a stoner and smoked pot at school and sold pot. I smoked pot with some popular kids but I was not popular. In my adult life I guess Iām too stupid or self unaware to realize I should stay hidden in my house and never go out. I just keep putting myself out there and getting jobs. Some people like me sometimes at some jobs but Iām still kind of an outsider. I need the money and that motivates me.
I remember when I was a little kid, maybe 7 or 8ā¦ When I would walk on sidewalks I would always avoid the cracks on the sidewalk. If I stepped on one of the cracks, I would get anxious.
I was always hated , bullied , out cast , etc
Had my real eyes , spirit , nature , aura n riches etc taken by jealous ones .
Had malicious horrible ones in my bod act as me against my will and in nasty manner .
Alone isolated etc
I had a normal childhood, all through high school and up until the first semester of college. I think the stress and drastic change of being out of my comfort zone lead to my prodromal phase. The unfamiliar situation, having to make new friends, and the fact that I had to do everything myself also brought my autism to the surface. So to answer your question, Iād say no ā up until about the age of 19.
I was never popular either in School I was Bullied by some people but not all the time and I have always been different and to today people judge me and look at me differently like you would look at an alien I sometimes get the occasional raised eyebrows or look of disgust I keep to myself avoiding eye contact too it makes me uncomfortable when people stare into my eyes so I almost always look away Also I am constantly judged by people I am pretty good at reading a room and peoples expressions when Im around them
I was always the odd one out in school. They called me weird behind my back. I did well academically but not socially. I had severe anxiety and didnāt go to any school dances or other social events. Nor did I go out with my friends except to their houses. I didnāt follow the crowd. I had imaginary friends till my twenties. I stayed in my room instead of going out. I lived in my own fantasy world. Never ever went to parties and nightclubs/raves etc. Just stayed home.
My father and my so called āfriendsā used to call me āwierdā, āstrangeā and āoddā. When my dad was the wierd one as he was a pedophile. I was autistic so of course I was bullied on occasion and I still am. And I was always a loner and shunned by people. Especially as I got older.