i once took a ■■■■ in a plastic bag and put it in the bin. i think it was from when i was little and saw jaws or alligator. when i sat on the loo i thought one of them would come and get me…doesn’t really explain y i sat on the loo in the first place though does it. i also ran away from home twice, and made a telephone call with two tampons shoved up my nose…something about not breathing the air…even though i had to breathe through my mouth lol. i have really been whacky a few times. what about u?
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I hand cuffed my 9 year old kid sister to me and then I went to the store. I was so up set about the fact that I was going to die before she did because I am 11 years older I got naked and tried to climb into the pizza freezer to preserve myself for 11 years and then we would be the same age.
The store security guy was freaking out and he pulled his gun, the real cop got there and was more worried about the twitchy store security guy. My sis was in the line of fire the entire time making sure not to budge. As she was playing human shield and I was on the floor having a fit, the store cop got taken to the back office and I got taken to holding and my sis got taken home.
I also snatched my sister off her school play ground and took off driving. She was 6 and I was 17. She was reported as kidnapped by me. That was the beginning of the swan song of an episode that landed me in hospital the first time.
The list of stupidity goes on and on and on. I’m in therapy for the guilt and the PTSD.
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I’ve done some really stupid things, embarrassing things, and dangerous things. I’m too ashamed of the things I’ve done to want to detail them.
I know it was the illness, but it’s hard to shake the feelings of shame and embarrassment.
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I got married to a woman who was a con artist
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Lol, that was lovely!
So to understand what I was doing you have to understand the delusion I was under.
I thought a few people that I knew had went back in time, kinda, like I thought black people were discriminated against like back in MLK days because of a couple of things that happened. From then on out(whilst walking down the street with my Caucasian fiance and holding her hand), in order to avoid detection by either white people or police I started walking and acting like a beast, the pet or slave of my fiance to any watching. When we walked past black people I would straighten up and tell them to follow me, one guy follows lol! Later on when I got alone I thought it was imperative that I climb in through someones window, needless to say I was arrested, when they asked why I said Jesus told me to do it and they took me to the looney bin, funny thing, when I got there I saw the guy I told to follow me and a guy I had seen leave the house I entered… twilight zone much
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I can’t remember too much when I’m psychotic because after I feel really light headed tbh
So my parents took me to the hospital during my first episode of psychosis.
I run away, then I went on a walk around the city, arrested about 6 hours later because i walked into a random woman’s house whos door was unlocked, i asked the cops for marijuana, what else, ended up in the detention center, then the hospital where they got me back to reality and eventually let me out.
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Thanks Jayne, I needed that laugh, hope that’s okay.
I used to talk to trees and dirt because I thought they were talking to me. I hope to god nobody was watching. That’s one of many many weird things I’ve done. There are too many to list and I’m too embarrassed. Looking back I feel like I was monitored through it all and everyone knows my craziness that I was trying to keep secret. In fact, I feel like I’m being monitored right now.
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well, dumb thing I did was I believed God told me to go out in the front yard in my boxers and pick flowers…and I did…thank goodness I didn’t believe I was supposed to be nude…haha…
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Such awkward moments with girls was the most embarrassing, still managed to get a couple though. I’ve done things like run around my neighborhood naked. go out in the freezing cold to pray in the forest. Pisses myself in the car. Ran around a hospital telling them they poisoned my food. Stole a car and got arrested. And a lot more physcotic things. Now that I look back at the delusions I had there something to laugh at
just read it…no u didn’t insult me hunni…i can’t seem to keep a straight face when i think back either. the cause wasn’t funny but even i laugh at the feect now. it wasn’t funny at the time but in hindsight, i’ve laughed every time i’ve recalled that night. xxx
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Cool, at least we still have a sense of humor.
No matter how odd and bazar I get, I always think I’m funny.
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Got pissed wasted, hit on a girl and then threw a rage tantrum on my friends, pissed my pants and found myself surrounded by seven policemen in my kitchen. I was taken to a crisis assessment center for the night, where I didn’t sleep and just stared at the clock. This was my worst moment. I laugh about it as I write it out, I realize how funny it may have looked from a sane point of view.
I have to say I enjoyed myself that night. That’s whats messed up. Being piss drunk, psychotic and belligerent and just being a 19 year old, jacked, drunk schizophrenic felt pretty free. I was being an idiot, and sometimes that feels good. I quickly regained control of myself and became very apologetic when my I remembered that I was delusional. At that point I hadn’t been diagnosed, but I knew had some sort of mental illness, as I knew hearing voices wasn’t normal. I also knew that some of my thoughts had to be a little too far-fetched, but I was still delusional for the most part. I had some moments of clarity where I thought I was just crazy but they were ephemeral. I was diagnosed a month later and then gained insight into my condition.
Now I am in remission, so this is one hell of a memory.
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If you don’t mind me asking, how long were you married?
I’ve been engaged a few times, but never made it to the alter.
I once got arrested on a trespassing charge because I went into this house that was unlocked. I think it was part of a larger delusion where I had money and power. Anyways, I hope this was a lesson learned.
My family was house sitting at a friend of the families when she was gone.She lived in the hills. I was about 20 years old. One evening I just took off walking. I didn’t have shoes on, I was just in my socks. I just walked through the hills. I had never been there before and I had no idea where I was. I walked straight through the hills by myself for three hours. I ended up in a huge park. I had heard of It but I never been there before. It was about 10 miles from the house. I got there and then I took off walking again. By this time it was dusk. I ended up at a strip mall. At night I slept on the ground in the doorway of a dry cleaners. I was only wearing a t-shirt and I froze my ass off.The next morning a cop drove up to me and picked me up. My parents a had reported me missing to the police because they had no idea where I was. I was gone a day. That was very unlike me to do that.
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Hi J, I was in the throws of a deep delusional state, it lasted for years. I married her thinking she was the one. She cheated on me, tried to steal away my life savings and lied to me constantly. I was so far gone - I had no clue.
It lasted 7 years, but I lived with her for about 3 years before marriage. Thank goodness no kids with her
I cut myself eight-four times with an Exacto knife because I thought I could purge my body of evil through my blood.
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I once had two Africans working for me. A husband and his wife. They could hardly speak a few words of English and I couldn’t speak one word of their Shangaan language as they were from Mozambique. I had a lot of strange things happening at my house and I suspected these two of exercising black magic on me. I tried to talk to them but I kept on becoming more paranoid. I then went to the police arranged for an African female captain of the police to come and talk to them. I told the captain everything that went wrong in the house and she translated it to them. They were very suprised at the allegations and obviously denied everything. The captain left by giving them a firm warning not to practice black magic. My relief was short lived as the delusions and paranoia just intensified. Today I feel so embarresed about this…but this is one example of many stupid things I did.
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