Today I admitted to my therapist that sometimes I hate myself. During these times of self loathing I sometimes hit myself in the head. I told her its because I often mess up things and people like to bring up my mistakes. I don’t know how to explain it except I blame myself for my illness.
It always sounded to me that you were in a complex situation with the people around you.
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i used to blame my self for everything…
i think it is normal…especially for sz people…we carry guilt…like a cross on our backs.
go easy on yourself
you are a good person.
know someone cares 
take care 
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@everhopeful my therapist this afternoon kept telling me that it’s not my fault that I got sick it’s not even my dad’s fault for carrying the gene.
@darksith it’s the albatross around our necks I guess. I apologize constantly for things that’s not my fault.
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I heard “Every head shall bow.” I don’t know the exact origin of the quote but to me it just means we’re just aware that we can fall short of expectations.
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You shouldn’t feel bad about messing up because of a medical illness you have. People don’t typically point, laugh and spit in the face of a man missing a leg who fell down and the fact they do it to us with an invisible disability means they’re lowly people with little understanding for anything and if there really is a heaven or hell I know where they’re going to automatically no matter what.
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I hate myself all the time. There is no break, no time out. I feel you there.
Start valuing your little everyday accomplishments, and try doing something productive as much as you can. I don’t know what else to say.
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That old cliché “There is a fine line between love and hate” is particularly true of our relationship with ourselves. There are things about myself that I hate. I don’t know if it is productive for me to do that. I think a message a lot of us get is that if we hurt ourselves maybe other people won’t hurt us. I know I got that message growing up.
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be kind to yourself cbbrown and maybe things will improve for you.
do something you like doing
try to enjoy yourself.
it should help with this i hate me feeling.
judy
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