Has anyone else had a relative kill themselves? TW Maybe idk

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Have you experienced a loss in your family or friendships to suicide?

I just listened to some Pink Floyd and one of the songs made me think deeply about my father, but he has been gone a long time now.

Sometimes I think I carry the same weakness and will eventually end up like he did.

Apparently he was a nice person, but yet he still saw it fit to kill himself when I was only 3 years old.

I do not carry as much burden on his actions as those who were older when it happened.

Seems like a strange thing to have not experienced the type of connection like this in my life and mourn the loss of it, as I do not know any better

Does it make me cold hearted to be indifferent to this person who conceived me and whom I share characteristics with that I will never know?

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I think you should try and forgive and love your father. That’s my two cents at least.

I had an aunt commit suicide though.

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Oh honey, no, that’s totally understandable. I do not know the circumstances of why he killed himself, but it was a selfish act. It might be that he was in such pain that he saw it as his only option, I don’t know. It is not inevitable that you end up like him. From your posts, it sounds like you are getting help. I would try to find people who knew him when he was happy and had zest for life, so you can get a more accurate picture of who your dad was.

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My son killed himself at only 30 years old. He was paranoid sz/sza. Apparently he was in very deep mental pain.

He inherited his MI from me. I was in abysmally deep pain myself for many years too. How I escaped suicide I’ll never know.

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No. That would be difficult. Actually, for being 38 years old I have t been to that many funerals. It’s usually deceased cuz of old age. Grandparents/uncle/etc.

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Yup…

:grimacing:

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I have an uncle who killed himself at a considerably young age.

We suspect he also had schizophrenia, but my family doesn’t really talk about it.

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my nephew shot himself

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My uncle killed him self

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My cousin who has Sz too shot himself and died.

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It doesn’t make you cold hearted to be indifferent to your father. Its a coping mechanism so that you will not be devastated by what happened. I lost my brother to suicide as a teenager and it ruined me. I believe schizophrenia developed later in my life because of the stress from that day. Stay strong and live everyday with gratitude!

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An uncle of mine did, i never met him.

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My cousin did, but it was an accident.

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I had a cousin commit suicide.

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yes My Cousin who was Bipolar/Schizophrenic.

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2 cousins … they suffered from depression.

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I haven’t had family kill themselves, but a couple of my friends have killed themselves. They weren’t close friends, but I liked them, and both times I was completely caught by surprise when they killed themselves. If they gave any signals of what they were going to do I missed them. I wish them well in the afterlife.

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I don’t know anybody who killed themselves and I don’t even know anyone who tried except me. My friends father was murdered though

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Had two cousins commit suicide . They both had schizoaffective disorder.

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Two people in my family committed suicide.