There was this chick. I met her in 5th grade. In 5th grade I considered myself one of the cool kids. I was never particularly cool in previous years but 5th grade everything was pieced together for me right. Well this girl in my class definitely had a crush on me. But I had a crush on someone else instead.
She was always nice to me in middle school after also. Then in high school I was definitely mentally ill by this point. I remember someone asking me in front of her why I didn’t go to the prom with this other girl. I gave my honest answer and she laughed. Then kept staring at me and giggling after that. This girl was considered “popular” in high school. She’s also very pretty. I was intimidated at this point.
But anyways she saw me again at cvs after high school. She was checking me out but I was really shy. She actually lives in my neighborhood we were in the same bus too. She witnessed when I got suspended for fighting in 6th grade at the back of the bus too. But anyways after high school she told my friend she wanted to do the dirty with me. It infuriated me what my friend said for reasons I won’t explain. I got really angry. But I wasn’t doing well at this time. Later after I got arrested she saw me walking with my mom and she looked really concerned. (I was arrested for psychosis recently at that point and everyone knew ).
HAvent seen her in a decade until yesterday I walked by her house she was driving in her car out of her driveway with a big smile on her face looking at me like I can’t even explain the look but it was a good one.
IDK she’s probably married at this point or something but it’s cool to have someone who secretly admires you but you know it anyways after 20 years…
Anyone secretly crush on you??
How bout secret crushes on others??
My crushes don’t last too long usually.
However I’ve been thinking about this girl since yesterday. Like damn she’s definitely aged great too.
In sixth grade this guy asked me out and I did NOT understand why he was doing it. I was dead sure he was waiting for me to say yes so he could laugh at me and say I was too much of a loser to actually date. So I gave my most condescending look and told him absolutely not and then walked off proud of myself for not falling for a trick. Found out like a decade later that he went home and cried because he genuinely liked me and i was super mean to him. I mean, I didn’t want to date him, but i wish I had realized he was being genuine so i could have given him a nicer exoerience of his first rejection.
In 7th grade another girl I wanted to really ask out. And she was aware too. And She was being really flirtatious around me one morning info. Touching me and all. Like CMON ask me out. Practically. My friend even told me previously she wanted me to ask her out.
But I didn’t ask her out.
Then I was sick with a flu for 2 days. And when I returned to school she was going out with someone else . Still had regrets on this one later. Could never pull the trigger. Then she was sorta mean to me after that and probably still friends with the other guy to this day. Oh well I wasn’t ready for a relationship at the time. Well things could’ve been different but you live you learn.
I hope the guy felt somewhat reassured as I grew up and became more clearly queer. Like I didn’t date anyone all through high school and most of college, I cut my hair short and wore exclusively men’s clothes except my cheerleading uniform. I didn’t officially come out until 25, but nobody was surprised. Apparently my closet had glass doors lol.
Adolescence is tough. Sounds like he had a good heart. I’d think he probably turned out alright emotionally. either way 1 incident of rejection doesn’t change everything
The girl I almost asked out in 7th grade was a total jock with short hair and wore boys clothes
Although she became more feminine towards the end of high school. Now I haven’t heard of her in a decade.
I technically had my first boyfriend at age 17, but that was very technical because my friend was dating a guy who lived an hour away and he had a twin brother. His twin kept hanging around all the time when they wanted alone time, so she asked if I would date him to keep him occupied. I was very much not interested but took one for the team cuz I’m a good wingman.
My first real boyfriend I actually liked was when I was nearly 21. And we only dated until the night of my birthday. He threw a fit that I planned to go to a bar with my friends, and was being horribly obnoxious, calling my phone every 5 minutes to yell at me and call me a ■■■■. Because I wanted to go to a bar with friends. So i took the battery out of my phone for a week.
Yes, there’s been a few. I never did understand it. I ended up sleeping with them. Nothing too exciting came of it. I had a bad crush once and he finally asked me out, I didn’t do well on the date due to nerves. One night, I forget why, but I ended up spending the night with him in his bed, we were pressed up against each other as the bed was small but neither of us made the first move. I was shy and looking back on it I bet he was a virgin. Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if I would have made a move on him. Instead, a few weeks later I met his brother and ended up falling for him. We dated for 3 years until he joined the Air Force and moved away and broke my heart.
I had never received a Valentine’s Day gift in my life from a secret admirer until one year I received a card with a real door key inside. The sender still remains a mystery to this day. I had a long term boyfriend at the time who denied having sent it to me.
I am 55 now so I think my chances of having a secret admirer are well and truly over.
Lol you’re not too old to have secret admirers. Definitely not.
Anyhow, Another thing about the girl in my OP is I received 2 Valentine’s Day secret admirer cards in 5th grade. For some suspicion although I always thought it was someone else I think it might have been from this girl. I’ll never truly know though
Anyways sorry to any post I didn’t respond to. Not leaving u out. Just My mom broke her wrist I was giving her a ride to the doctor. When I get home there are many replies. Hard to keep up with them all!!