I still get flashbacks from one of my old episodes in 2011. It’s painful to think about. It gets triggered if I see someone I know crying.
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I am learning how to cope, and I am learning to be relentless without giving up.
Mine make me feel humiliated because of the stupid stuff I did and because of the tons of money I wasted.
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Ah yeah for sure, I have some embarrassing moments. But eh what’s done is done
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yeah, same here…when I was delusional I went to the strip club…and wasted a lot of money.
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Yes I get scared I’ve mentioned it before also. One year I spent like 5k on hospital visits. I’m hoping that my meds keep my paranoia away. I haven’t tried plugging my TV back in yet.
Oh, the same for me with my boozing and drugging. I was sick, I got on top of it, I got better, and I’m not doing those things now. That’s what I’m focusing on. Gotta keep going forward otherwise you go crazy. And NOT from the SZ (self-inflicted wound in this case).
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Substance abuse is more common in sz I read. I guess I was lucky to not have such problems. I remember a few times my brothers beat me up for getting too drunk or from being high on weed. If they didn’t maybe I would have been a drug and booze addict.
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I guess you have to accept these situations, and get on with your life. 
I feel like ive learned to manage my fear well enough. But if my world falls apart around me, theres still a part of me that says. This isnt fair i can see all these strange perceptions happening and i know better. But theres nothing i can do except take meds and sacrifice more of myself in hopes that i will become stronger. Or sacrifice the bad parts rather like unnessicary fear. Doesnt seem to affect the perceptions though. I guess it is organic insanity after all.
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I cleaned up just before the SZ really hit. My first psychiatrist figured the stress of cleaning up was what helped push me the rest of the way over the edge. I had trashed my liver as much as you can without dying, so self-medicating wasn’t an option when the aliens moved into my head and turned me into a terrified lump.
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Everybody on this thread, is motivating and inspiring. Everybody on this thread are strong people.
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Psychosis was scary for sure. I thought I would go off the deep end at any second and never come back. For a solid two years.
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I thought the same exact thing when I was in-and-out of psychosis during my third year, I thought I’d regress, get stuck in it, and have to be in a mental hospital for the rest of my life. Thank goodness I stuck with the meds and got better.
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I was wrecked for a couple of years. Then I decided that the spinning thoughts and voices were just part of the process and I had to learn to trust and surrender to my higher power.
I googled every helpful TED talk, teacher, and podcast and made a daily effort to heal. I told myself (and the voices) that I wouldn’t be fighting them but instead looking honestly at myself and healing me and them.
You can retrain your thoughts by asking them questions like - Is this helpful?Why do I think this thought and when did I first learn to think like that? How does this painful thought go back to something that I need to forgive and heal from? Is this thought true?
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There were times when I had the shakes after a hard drinking binge, and I was scared. One time I somehow figured out through my brilliant logic that they had pushed the button and our missiles were headed towards Russia, and their missiles were headed towards us. I was wondering if it would do any good to crawl under the bed.
The voices used to scare me a lot. I also have anxiety and they fed on it.
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