I have to go today. I should really be getting ready, but, I am terrified. I see a fitness trainer, so, that means I have to talk to him. I don’t want to talk today. I spent last night in my delusions and hallucinations. I just want to hide! The grocery store isn’t as hard, but, still difficult. I haven’t slept much in the past few days, so, the walking around seems impossible. It’s at the point that I am dreading vacation next week… I don’t know what to do. I haven’t been this afraid in about a year.
Is there any undue stress happening besides this? It could be stress over something else spilling over. That happens to me a lot.
I hope you feel better soon.
Be patient with yourself and if you don’t make it to the trainer… it will be OK.
Are you going away for vacation or are you staying home?
My life is seemingly stress free at the moment, but, I can’t breath and last time I went to the gym I had to tell the trainer about my previous bouts of anorexia and my current depression! I ran out crying… The vacation is 4 hours away. My husband never gets a break so we need to go. I know it will be okay… Ugh.
It sounds like it’s the gym thing that is causing you the stress. Being so close to leaving for holiday… that is a lot on the plate.
I’m not trying to get personal… My kid sis is fighting anorexia with all she’s got… She was almost hospitalized with feeding tube. She’s been working her CBT and therapy and trying to recover. I’m always looking for ideas… If it’s too personal I understand… but how have you managed to fight it?
My way isn’t very plausible. I got pregnant with my daughter when I was 80 pounds. I could not jeopardize her health for my body.
Since then, I have had a great support system and I make a point to tell everyone about the problem. That way I am obligated to eat. I still don’t eat as I should, but, one meal a day is better than none. I also went to culinary school for a while which helped a lot. I have studied nutrition extensively and am working towards gaining muscle mass (not losing weight). The scale is useless for a nice body I have learned. You might ask her to look up “fitspiration” but it may just annoy her. She is welcome to contact me for support! It’s a hard battle.
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I may skip the gym…
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It can be really hard getting out sometimes. I’d be the same way about the gym if I had to talk to someone there. When I go I just like to keep to myself and watch the television or something.
Maybe you can ask your fitness trainer to go easy on you today because of the lack of sleep. You don’t want to overexert yourself.
Why are you dreading vacation?
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Yes skip the gym.
There are things that you can do at home like stretches and yoga. Don’t stress yourself out over going to the gym.
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Vacation is just more going out. More danger. With a 4 month old there are special preparations to be made. Its just a lot to cope with.
I am skipping the gym. I will go back after I see the pdoc.