It was so scary and stressful. I really wanted to send the demon away. I really did. The worst part is I KNOW I have the ability to send it away. I WANTED to. But I couldn’t. The feeling it gives me is so overpowering and addictive that I cannot end things with it, I can’t stop. I feel like a drug addict who has lost control. It gives me this intoxicating euphoric, sensual high. Floods me with it.
I don’t know what to do. I’m taking my meds again so I hope that will stop this. I hate that thing so much.
Lately I have been getting little to no sleep because of house renovations going on at my boyfriend’s. I also have been taking my meds irregularly because I’ve been so tired sometimes I just forget or don’t have energy to take them. So my symptoms are flaring up again.
However i know this is just temporary the renovations will finish, I’ll get sleep, and I’ve started being adamant about taking my meds regularly again.