Getting ready to go in 1 hour. Getting very nervous and anxiety is topping up. I hate going to doctors at all and especially pdocs. As this is my first visit to this one, I am extra anxious.
My family has agreed that with all the meds I have already tried and side effects i suffer, they are going to ask if I can get on an antianxiety and antiseizure med only. My symptoms are fairly manageable without stress. Stress is the issue and everything skyrockets from there. So if we can control that maybe we can control most or at least where I am not sleeping my life away or spasmoid. I told them If we can do that, I will try cbt or psychotherapy. we shall see how it goes. wish me luck.
I tried that years ago - I had panic attacks worrying I would stop breathing or stop my heart. I can’t do meditations. Thank you though - maybe the yoga part of it.
if it isn’t helpfull for u …u might avoid it…
sorry U had a bad impression with mindfulness… !!!
but i do it daily…has helped me…!!!
i will be happy for whatever decision u take…
thanks and good luck…!!!
I am back - It did not go so well. (sorry so long)
I was very anxious and nervous and so my TD symptoms were acting up really BAD. My dh went with me and he hates doctors so he didn’t speak much and he also didn’t know my childhood history or history really before we met so I had to talk alot.
She agreed that my former pdoc had over medicated me and feels that my td symptoms could be permanent. She also thinks I may have been misdiagnosed and was having a pyschotic break from the stress of working.
She said schizophrenia will do well on meds and there is a new test where they can swab your mouth and it will tell them exactly what med will work the best. But she will not prescribe anything because she says all ap’s reduce the threshhold for seizures so for me no more ap’s.
She says she thinks I am schizotypal not schizophrenia but wants all my medical records from everyone first. She wants me to get the neurology results before we talk again. She said they can advise about the seizures and the td symptoms and we will go from there. Oh …and she said if I was sz I would be high functioning…
Is that because I asked her if she wanted to hear what doctors say or what I say when it came to my voices? I told her I know they are supposed to not be real but I know they are spirits that I have to watch over.
I did tell her I was first diagnosed as schizotypal as a teen and then the sz so that is our starting point and she will decide after all the med records and visits with her.
It looks like you have just another psychiatrist trying to deal with you and your case as best she can. You look to me to be helpless in the face of everything you are undergoing. You know too much about yourself. You want to be heard but she has to proceed on her own. You’re going to get a lot of answers that are bewildering. It looks like you don’t trust anything that is offered. To your surprise, you might find something that works.
Thank you for responding Martin. I am very suspicious of all doctors. I have always felt like I am a guinea pig or (lab rat) for them. That with my ‘delusion’ that people can read my mind and then control my thoughts makes it impossible to trust.
It wasn’t a very long meeting so I haven’t told her much about my hallucinations, delusions or anything else - just that I have them.
At first I felt like she was trying to say she didn’t want to treat me as a patient or that I was untreatable. My dh says that is not what she meant. She is concerned about starting any meds because of my seizures so she needs info from the neurologist.
I can only promise that I will try to stick with it. My paranoia overcomes often and I then avoid everything. I was able to stay in treatment with last pdoc cause he overmedicated so I was always sleeping and no longer cared.
You don’t want to be overmedicated. You should be able to function with lucidity and happiness. Establish trust with your doctor. Get her to do what you need, not what she wants.
