Well, my pdoc thinks, that i dont have energy because of my paranoia… But i have anxiety as well and till now, i wait still that my ap works on my paranoia 
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Its possible, that i have a bpd as well, so thats why i am not very relieved by the meds…
But maybe this will come, no?
Does your ap gives you an energy though? I have a depressed friend, who found the zyprexa even lifting lol… I find this strange. But maybe, i need time for that it works the same on me, am not sure…
Tbh, the zyprexa pulled me out of the bed, but i am often still very often in a lot of pain lol…
I had a terrible day today though… I have to go outside tomorrow and this freaked me so much, that my extremities went weak again, with the feeling that ill do some crazy things or that i wont be able even to walk from fear and weakness…
My mother is tired from my illness, so she is not cool anymore with me… Tbh, i ended up hating her today, but this became very painful to me 
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Ok, tell me please if your ap kicks you in energy too? Some docs say, that the aps can be even antidepressive…
I feel a bit less energetic but more lively on meds.
You mean, that you feel more ‘‘alive’’ on your ap? I guess you regained on your emotions and your mental strength, isnt it? 
Yes a bit…
For energy issues do blood tests to see if you have deficiency in vitamin d, thyroid and vitamin b12 levels. Optimal level needed and not just normal.
I have none of this, we checked it all before… My fear is so consuming, that its mental here…
Some of you dont understand why i am not changing, but lately, i find very hard my mother with me… She doesnt understand my conversion disorder, who is based on my paranoia and who is stopping me even to walk often… The weakness also comes from this conversion disorder…
I’d wish my zyprexa will lift me one day, it will open this numbed brain, but i dont understand why its not working… None of the other aps didnt work on my fears, i tried 11 aps, no way to try them again…
ap and other medications even ssri can cause energy issues. but that’s needed as extreme paranoia create much more issues. i think the energy issues is due to the effect of medication if there is no problem with vitamin d, b12 and thyroid levels.
I had energy issues since kid, long before the meds, pr21… My doc thinks its because of my paranoia… I wish my ap would work on my worries, the anxiety and the paranoia… But tbh, i carry some hate sometimes at my worst, anger and irrtability. It all comes from a deep pain and loneliness i guess .
One of my pdocs was claiming, that my zyprexa may work in years in my case, but some people told me, that she lies…
i too get angry, depressed etc at times but what helped me is faith in God. to live in obedience with God. when i do so i feel like God present with me so i not need to worry about anything which can happen in future.
I switched to Abilify from Zyprexa last May. I’m not as sedated as I was, my mood swings and anxiety are gone, and my blood sugar is near normal. I’m not sleeping as much as I did. So I guess I can say I’m energized now.
i see, thanks… Maybe i still hate my fear, just that… I had it so disabling for years, that my isolation lasted 20 years… I was never a believer, yeap… But if this can help my fear? i am maybe just traumatized now from what i’ve gone through…
yes try, as nothing to lose. may be depression, fear, anxiety, disease all devils tricks to depress us.
Ok, i see, thank you… But i cant deal with problems so much, i hide so much from them, that my mother says, that she’ll take away my legal capacity… Imagine to have a last relative, who says you this… I am human, while she doesnt believe in my recovery at all… She says, that i’ll be always ill and alone and she pushes me to get used, that i need to maintain my house and go to the supermarket. She doesnt see more future for me, thats what happens here and maybe thats why i dont progress… But to hate my mother will only make me suffer myself, i know this i think…
yes not do anything which favors devil, for example never get angry at anyone even if they do to you this way not give devil any chance in your life. you can notice changes for sure.
what i learnt is our disease might get worse but nothing can depress us, overwhelm us. its like courage to continue.
I see… Yeap, i know this… But i am almost never bad with her… While she says, that i’ll be always sick and alone, its too much… None of my ill friends didnt have a parent like this, no one…
say nice words to her, help her if you can and thus do just the opposite of anger. you can feel better also your mother too behave nice to you. we can never win an enemy with hatred or war but with love, kindness etc.
Ok, thanks again. Yeap, but sometimes its me who needs love and she is just yelling at me… Ok, i guess i still get angry interiorly to her, maybe thats why it isnt working… Ok, ill try to see. But i dont have the strength to be kind often… but i got you ok… Its just that when i am bad and scared, she says lately that her soul hurts her too and that she too has many other physical illnesses. I think she is fed up by me…
anger comes from fear. she is actually in fear, anxiety when she yells at you. she thinking about your future what happen if you not function etc so this fear made her angry. but actually she caring for you.