Right when I was at my most floridly psychotic I was objectively way more productive. I walked for hours a day, had friends and made it to my appointments.
Now I am medicated everything is the opposite. I am not psychotic but I am afraid to leave the house, have no friends and can’t do ■■■■.
With all sincerity what situation was more pleasure able. I would say the first.
Every time you do this, you crash hard and are deeply frightened and unhappy. You also lose significant ground that takes you an unexpectedly long time to make up when you resume treatment.
Please learn from your past attempts and save yourself the pain.
I’m glad you took your meds. It’s hard though, isn’t it? It seems like everyday I’ve been saying I don’t want to take them. But I always do. It’s hard to remember being sick and I get to thinking I’m worse off with them. I think that’s part of the illness somehow. Seems like a lot of people on here struggle with staying on their meds.