I’m tired all the time, but I don’t think I have the right to be tired. I remember my mom making fun of my aunt because she said she needed a break. She’d say, “What do you need a break from?” because my aunt didn’t work. My aunt is bipolar.
I guess I’ve always felt like, because my mom did all the things she did (raising kids while going to school full time, working full time and going to school), and I’m not juggling all those things, I don’t have a reason to be tired.
Makes me think I’m weak and pathetic. She also doesn’t admit I’m schizophrenic.
I know it’s hard but it might not serve you well to compare yourself to your mom. You might do better to compare today to yesterday and see if today is better than yesterday and if it is that’s success. If it isn’t then take some much needed rest and try again tomorrow. You and your mom aren’t on a level playing field, she doesn’t have a serious mental illness. Don’t underestimate the level of disability you’re overcoming just to get out of bed. That’s just me though, you may be different. You may be able to push yourself harder than I can. Either way, best of luck to you.
neither does mine. I dont have cognitive woes nor depression so ppl look at me like i’m fine. I question myself too, but i know how hard my life has been and how far i’ve come, i dont feel 1 bit worthless, maybe in society’s eyes i am an indolent but they are ignorant of what it really means to suffer