Feeling violent

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I’ve had a bad weekend. I had a bad week last week and it culminated in a bad weekend where I felt really agitated and violent.

It’s not really me to feel like this, normally I’m very gentle but I was throwing things around. And today it is back, I feel like punching.

Poor Mr Turtle, I asked if I could punch something and he said no.

I don’t know where it comes from. I got really upset on Saturday morning when the shadow man sent me a message through the radio that I’m a devil. Then we went to get our wedding rings off lay buy and the woman got really aggressive trying to up sell us on a ‘care plan’ for the rings and I started getting really upset at her.

I don’t want to go to work tomorrow feeling like this but I feel like if I skip work then I am giving up and not trying.

Any tips? Do you ever feel like this?

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I just called my Dad but he didn’t really want to talk about it. He kind of fobbed me off.

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I sometimes get aggressive (at times super aggressive).

What I do is exercise. You have to get that energy out of you. Do anything positive that works for you.

Go run 25 miles, as fast as you can, then report back to me.

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lol! :blush:
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what’s eating at you? why can’t you just take slow breaths and settle down? do you think anger management would help?

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I find violent video games plus aggressive music levels me out …I USTA have a punching bag to hit but don’t need it anymore…

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Ask you nurse for a sedative, till it passes… :wink:

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Sounds like seroquel might be having unintended consequences to be honest.

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Did you work today, turtle?

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No @Plumber I didn’t work that day, it was my regular day off.

I’m going to try to go into work today.

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Talk to your doctor about it. It’s probably due to seroquel. Maybe it’ll go away once you get adjusted to seroquel.

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What kind of work do you do @anon84763962 ? Is it soothing?

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Maybe it will. It’s really horrific living with graphic violent images running through my mind and having these urges to do violent things. It’s against my nature.

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If it gets too intense, I’d stop taking seroquel.

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I work in worker’s comp. I am a claim manager. Today I have to request doctor reports and design the questions, and I have to reject a claim for a secondary condition. Amongst all that I have daily tasks like attending to inbound correspondence, authorise invoices for payment, assess claims for closure, and deal with inbound telephone calls.

I’ve been doing it for six years so it’s sort of old hat for me, and I like it and I work with really good people so that helps a lot.

I just have to concentrate on being at my desk and working slowly and carefully through things.

My bosses are really supportive, they know about my schizophrenia and they make adjustments for me when I need them. Like today I might request to be off the phone so I can concentrate on some bigger tasks that I have to do.

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It’s great that you have a supportive work environment. :slight_smile:

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Yes I’m very lucky actually. I had a major psychotic episode last year and they let me have leave during it. I was off work for over nine months. And they got in an OT to help me back to work when I was ready.

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Try dancing! I think you would be a good dancer.

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Try singing too! singing and dancing makes everything better!

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