Feeling suicidal a bit

Wats the point wen u don’t have any close irl friends.

I don’t feel close to anyone in my family anymore.

I feel so alone.

This condition is really difficult.

I’m relying on this website to not feel alone by browsing it.

I have three irl ‘friends’ but I don’t like bothering them.

Does anyone feel the same.

Don’t worry I’m not fishing for online friends here but I just wanted to say this.

@anon90843118 I’ve been there, I’ve always got an open ear for ya if you wanna talk I’m here

Sorry you’re going through a tough time right now, @anon90843118-- this illness can really take a toll on relationships with others, and makes it hard to reach out to old and new people.

For what it’s worth, I think you’re a great person, and you’re always sociable and friendly with everyone here :slightly_smiling_face:


Thanks Twialine I’m not comfortable talking much in this forum but it’s nice to hear that from you. I appreciate it a lot. I’m sorry to hear that you have been there too. Hopefully you are out of it.

Do you think you’re the type of person that would like lots and lots of friends, or are you like me and are happy with a close few?

It’s Ok to be alone.
There are people who are loners and that’s legitimate.
I myself prefer to be alone, and for me being alone is beneficial for my mental health.

Yea I’m like you, I’m happy with just a small amount heck I’d be happy with one haha as long as they’re close

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Yes, I’ve been there a lot. No close friends is only half a life and if you’re not careful you get hurt by settling for less. I’m learning to get closer to people by simply giving them what they ask. I don’t know why, but I didn’t trust people to tell me what they really wanted so I didn’t listen. That’s also lazy because it’s a little work establish a friendship.

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Well it’s not much of a problem having 3 friends then. It just means you have the opportunity to get to know those people a little closer. I think I opened up about this to a friend once and he said it was not how I see it about not liking me. I noticed we always have the same problems.

I think for me one of my main concerns is that the lonilness will drive me to psychosis again. I hope not. I’m a bit opposite to you in that respect.

But yes at the same time being around people that make u anxious is not good either. Its tough.

Hello @anon90843118 . Your “need” for friends is sort of an intrusive thought.
Sometimes I get intrusive thoughts that I am lonely, but these are hostile thoughts.
You should know, that it is possible to live without being close to anybody,
you just need to control intrusive thoughts about loneliness.
For me I even feel better when I am alone over being with people.

Ya I have only a few irl friends but it’s ok, I hope you feel better! Your online and irl friends would be devastated if something happened to ya

Thanks for calling me a great person.
I think I’ll need to reach out to my three friends again at some point but right now I feel so unworthy. I have too much anxiety around them atm.

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If you are feeling suicidal, please tell someone — a friend or family member, a teacher, a doctor or therapist or call 911 (if you’re in the U.S.) or the Emergency Medical Services phone number in your country.

You can also call a suicide prevention hotline—these are available in the U.S. and in many other countries.

International suicide hotlines:


Suicide hotlines in the U.S.:


More resources:


I don’t understand wat you mean about you and your friend.

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Thankyou @toughluck33

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You were on 5mg abilify which is an antidepressant. Now you’re not and you’re depressed. I actually told you this would happen but can’t find the post.

You’re feeling low because of the med change. Report it to your doctor.

I said to a friend once what I thought about them not liking me and they said that it wasn’t like what I was saying and they seemed genuinely confused. I think it is just the illness and the negative outlook on life thing. Your friends probably won’t see you hanging around with them as bothering them they would probably be happy to meet up with you.

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I decided to stay on 5mg.