Feeling pretty bad about myself today

I way overate today. Ugh.

Plus, when I told my friend I needed a break because of things she was incorrectly assuming about me and accusing me of over the past few months and because of how deeply that hurt me, she never apologized or did anything to stop the break. That hurts. A lot.

I’ve gained back 80 of the 100 pounds (36.28 kg if the 45.35 kg) I lost 2 years ago.

I’m so out of shape and my immune disease is making it hard to work out.

I feel lazy, ugly, fat, worthless, and unloveable.

It really sucks.

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please don’t fret…you can always lose the weight again…i’m sure you’re beautiful.

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Doesn’t sound like your friend was much of a friend. But that’s their problem not yours. Don’t take their judgement of you over your own judgement of yourself.

As for losing weight, you can try again, but aim for slow weight loss. You were only eating 1000-1200 calories when you were on your diet if I remember. That might not have been sustainable.

You’re not worthless,lazy and all the other things you said.

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Don’t be so hard on yourself. You’re a very sweet person regardless of your weight.

I for one think you’re cooler than Cochise’s mustache. :sunglasses:

Take care ma’am. :rose:

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You can’t measure success the same way as someone without this disorder. I think you’re probably doing very well. Losing weight is hard especially on APs.

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You deserve to be loved and respected.

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Hope you will feel beautiful and loved and worthy.:pray:t4:

Love and dote on yourself.
Positive pepp talk to yourself.
Only loving kind words.

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@Montezuma @TheCanuk @agent101g @everhopeful @SacredNeigh7 @jukebox

Thanks for your kindness. It means a lot to me.

Yes, I was eating 1200 calories per day when I lost all that weight. With my olanzapine & risperidone combination, I’m constantly feeling famished so sticking to a diet now is super hard. But I need to get the willpower to overcome the hunger and cravings,

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I’m on Olanzapine also. I’m always hungry.

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Yeah. Drug induced hunger is no joke!

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Loosing weight is very hard to maintain. Keep trying.

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If your intentions are pure it’s their loss not yours.

You deserve friends who respect and listen rather than falsely accused.

Sorry to hear about the weight gain. I can empathise. Just remember though you might be able to loose some of it again.

Don’t pressure it with time span perhaps :+1:

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I hope you start feeling better about yourself.

I would try saying some kind words to yourself in the bathroom mirror.

Positive self-talk can help.

Also think about what you would say to a friend in a similar situation and say it to yourself.

That’s all the advice I got.

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You’re not unlovable. Friendships can be difficult with this disease. There’s a lot of misunderstanding or lack of empathy cause people really can’t relate. I’ve experienced this a lot. Honestly I don’t really have any neurotypical friends these days. Nothing against regular people, but it just kinda worked out that way.

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She’s mentally ill too. I’m hoping she takes her meds again so we can be friends in the future

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Oh my bad. I hope it works out.

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I’m sorry @CoCo . 1515151515

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No problem @ericsbat. I wasn’t upset just letting you know :slight_smile:

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