Plus, when I told my friend I needed a break because of things she was incorrectly assuming about me and accusing me of over the past few months and because of how deeply that hurt me, she never apologized or did anything to stop the break. That hurts. A lot.
I’ve gained back 80 of the 100 pounds (36.28 kg if the 45.35 kg) I lost 2 years ago.
I’m so out of shape and my immune disease is making it hard to work out.
I feel lazy, ugly, fat, worthless, and unloveable.
Doesn’t sound like your friend was much of a friend. But that’s their problem not yours. Don’t take their judgement of you over your own judgement of yourself.
As for losing weight, you can try again, but aim for slow weight loss. You were only eating 1000-1200 calories when you were on your diet if I remember. That might not have been sustainable.
You’re not worthless,lazy and all the other things you said.
You can’t measure success the same way as someone without this disorder. I think you’re probably doing very well. Losing weight is hard especially on APs.
Yes, I was eating 1200 calories per day when I lost all that weight. With my olanzapine & risperidone combination, I’m constantly feeling famished so sticking to a diet now is super hard. But I need to get the willpower to overcome the hunger and cravings,
You’re not unlovable. Friendships can be difficult with this disease. There’s a lot of misunderstanding or lack of empathy cause people really can’t relate. I’ve experienced this a lot. Honestly I don’t really have any neurotypical friends these days. Nothing against regular people, but it just kinda worked out that way.
