I’m feeling insecure about seeing my brother and his family for the holidays. I just don’t want to be scolded by my brother or judged by him. I have a suspicion that they think I’m stupid. I don’t really know why I let it get to me. He doesn’t really seem to care much for me or my family. I hate feeling like a pariah. Thinking of overdosing. I can’t take living anymore.
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Awe. Sorry you feel that way but you really shouldn’t let it get to you. Your a good person and you’ve done nothing wrong. Don’t fall into his bulldust and just be nice and supportive when you can. Some people like to feel superior to others. That is their problem and not yours.
Show that your the bigger person and that will eat him up anyways if he’s trying to put you down. I know it’s hard but have faith in yourself and be strong. Most importantly have fun. I’m sure the rest of your family is fun.
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Yeah, I do have nicer family. I just wish we lived closer to them. I may go spend Christmas with them instead. I really don’t want to be around people that don’t care about me.
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I’m sorry. I’m also really insecure and as much as I’m excited to visit family, I’m also terrified because I know they look down on me and see me as not good enough.
But don’t overdose. And if you think you might you should call a crisis line ASAP or go to the ER if that doesn’t help.
I know you can text home to 741741. I’ve used that one before.
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Thanks @LED. It’s just a passing thought. The only one I would feel bad about is my father. He’s always been there for me. But my mom has always been abusive towards me and has favored my brother. And always holds me down with passive aggression and blames me if I feel bad about my brother being rude, and horrible to me. It’s always my fault. I just told my husband I’d rather travel an hour to spend Christmas with my aunt (dad’s sister) over going to see my parents. My aunt and cousins were there for me when I really needed them and I them. He said we’ll see.
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I’m all for cutting out family that doesn’t treat you well. You deserve better. I’m going back to Indiana to visit my in-laws. I’ll be with them for 11 days. My side of the family might get an afternoon. I haven’t decided yet.
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I’m sorry you’ve felt the same way. Are your in laws kind toward you? I get along with my in laws thankfully. We’ll be seeing them Christmas day, all day.
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Yes. I love my in-laws for the most part. They’ve only ever been kind to me. But I still feel like they’re judging me for things. Comments they make about other people that also describe me. Things like that.
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Oh, yes that’s how I feel most days even if I’m not around anyone. Well, except my aunt’s and cousins which have always asked about my well being. But closer family like parents and brother or sis, bro in-laws, I still feel like they’re all judging me too.
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