Idk if it’s due to the illness. I feel as if I were a stupid 4 grader when my actual age is 37. Maybe it’s not the illness, but I’m born this way. I’ve tried to become smart, or at least average. I tried to study subjects such as an economy, arts, etc. but I couldn’t take anything in. I have difficulty in concentrating. This makes me unhappy and anxious. I can’t even read through a book written for kids(I found this out today). Looking back, I was a stupid kid. I did things without purposes and my thinking lacks logic. Even today, just trying to understand a movie makes my brain tired. So I don’t think schizophrenia is at fault. I was already stupid way before I got it.
I don’t want to live the rest of my life thinking I’m stupid. But I just can’t trust my abilities which I’m not even sure there are.
Sorry this isn’t a schizophrenia topic but about general stupidity. Any thoughts will be appreciated.
You’re not stupid at all. You always make insightful comments here, and wise ones too. I wouldn’t worry too much about it. You’re an intelligent person, and we’re all a bit stupid with somethings.
I also wouldn’t discard the sz right away, it can mess with our cognitive abilities. Makes you feel stupid but you’re definitely not.
Albert Einstein believed that imagination is more important than intelligence. He flunked a basic level algebra course. There are many ways of being intelligent. There was one brilliant physicist of Einstein’s era who couldn’t drive a car. I knew this one guy who scored very high on the standardized intelligence tests, and I heard him say once, “For someone who is supposed to be smart, how come I am so stupid?” I’m very stupid in some ways myself.
i can relate to the feeling. but i do think its the sz that overwhelms us… and also like what was said above about Einstein… he said everyone is a genius but society tries to make fish climb trees.
find what makes you happy… hell if i had to work in a factory like my family did id be miserable thankfully i can work on art and such even tho i know im not a pro level artist… i dont care tho at this point
Thank you so much @Minnii I never thought I’m intelligent. I was also worried about my comments here, like what if they’re garbage.
I just remember there’s been some people so far who told me I’m smart. But the thought ‘I’m stupid’ is so deeply seated, I always ignored such comments.
I’ll try to think my mistakes or shortcomings are a normal part of an intelligent person.
Bananatto, you are not stupid at all. What I can see is your excellent English language skills which requires lots of intelligence. It seems you have a better comand of English than I do despite that I have a 10 years of overseas experience in an English speaking country. You are amazing!
I had this exact problem @bananatto
My breaks turned me into a shattered vegetable. But I remember I could still beat my little sister at simple video games and this helped my concentration and confidence a little bit.
But I remember you have to break stuff into tiny chunks and congratulate yourself on each little chunk.
i would look at a book and just shudder. But read it one page at a time at my own turtle pace.
Then just slowly build up from there…
and life is just constant learning. the day you stop leaning new stuff is the day its over.
I understand how you feel, I too sometimes feel stupid. especially when I’m expected to put things away neatly and I just can’t seem to organize anything like dishes or books. my partner is very good at organizing things so usually I leave it up to her.
at this point