I just feel terrible right now I feel painfully empty and almost like I want to cry.
I feel like no one loves me and that everyone is sick of dealing with me and my problems.
I feel like I should just cut everyone off and just get out of their lives.
I feel like I’m not worth anything to anyone
Heyyy I think you’re awesome!!
That’s at least one person.
I bet others agree on this forum.
Thank you this helps a bit.
Tonight is just very rough
Are you medicated for depression?
What @FreeLunch said.
I like you! I know i really struggle with depression if I don’t take an antidepressant. Are you able to take one? It might help you.
Just know that it’s just how your are feeling now and it’s just a phase. I try to remind myself that depression comes in waves and you may feel fine in 2, 4, 6, 8 hours…keep fighting evil.
@FreeLunch @Charles_Foster no I am not.
@LilyoftheValley there are parts of me that would like to try an antidepressant but I unfortunately have a lot of trauma related to meds. And I worry that I might struggle with that. I’ve been trying to work on my med trauma in therapy but I haven’t made much progress unfortunately.
Thank you sometimes it’s hard to remember that it’s not permanent and that it will pass. It tends to come in waves for me too
Sounds like a catch 22 as you may need a med to help you work through the trauma
Do you take meds for your physical conditions?
You’d think it’d be easier to take a pill than be miserable all the time.
And from what I can tell, you are miserable all the time,
So, take some action.
Yeah it’s honestly a terrible predicament. Cause on one hand I do wonder if they could help but on the other hand I think that mentally I might not be able to deal with it.
I’ve taken them in the past but… It was during the worst time of my life and the person who was prescribing them to me was abusing me, and sometimes even used the meds as a means of control. And to top it off I had some pretty horrible side effects for some of them.
Thinking about going back on them just makes me feel a deep sense of fear and dread. Cause honestly in my memory they didn’t really give me any positive effects.
I’m sorry you went through that. Maybe you could research antidepressants, and choose the one you’d like to try. Then request it. That gives you a sense of control and gives you choice
I understand not wanting to interact with medications not trusting that they’ll affect any change
So far not really because they still aren’t sure what’s wrong with me so i don’t really have long standing prescriptions. Which is frustrating to a degree I can’t even fully articulate but there’s not much I can do about that.
I’m not miserable all the time…I literally come on here when I’m struggling, Because it’s A support forum
Also you don’t have to understand my feelings or my trauma or my list of reasons why I feel like it’s not a good idea. But what you’re saying is extremely dismissive and lacks empathy.
I am just trying to make it through my life as best I can with the hand I was dealt
I think Charles just comes off as Gruff sometimes it’s not that she doesn’t care about you or your depression
Sorry,
I just have a difficult time feeling bad for you when you won’t help yourself.
And also because of your history here.
I recently got a new psychiatrist/therapist and they’re letting me go at my own pace. They’re very understanding of my hesitation. They’re actually helping me prepare to do some tests to see how meds interact with me. Because they think it might help me feel more comfortable if I go on meds.
This is great news! This is the beginning of a new journey for you. Hang in there.
Do you know what is triggering these thoughts, sometimes something random starts a spiral. If you can go back to the start of the thoughts, you can try to rationalise yourself into thinking you have to fight the thoughts because you disagree with the initial direction of the thoughts.