Feeling ashamed of myself and a bit depressed

Last night I went into an uncontrollable rage because I felt threatened and persecuted. There’s no excuse though. I tried to attack a staff member and I feel so upset about what ive done. This just makes me want to go back to the real reality even more. I’m not safe to be around. It’s a choice but I felt out of control last night and now I’m reaping the consequences. :cry:

This all could of been avoided if I didn’t try to remove the hands in the first place before I was in hospital I’m so stupid but desperate.