I recently joined this forum and Im glad I found like people. I had one espisode in Nov 2015 and I have been medicated since then but have not had another one. I have problems with memory and motivation. Somethings I thought of before like business plans or great ideas I cant wrap my mind of now. Im still experiencing the sypthoms of Schizo. Lost my drive for life. Is there anyone who feel this way and how do you deal with it?
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I had my episode in June 2015, I’ve been medicated since then and I have some issues getting interested in things but miraculously motivation is as good as it was pre-schizophrenia. I think it’s the medications that do this to us but you can’t forget that that the disease plays a role as well.
Welcome to our forum! 
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Complete isolation so there is no exposure to events, although I’m trying to fight off thieves trying to break in my house, but that’s little easier. I can’t be outside I can’t handle volume and intensity. Being completely alone I feel I can manage my SZ what not.
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Been alone 99% of my time for years now, thats enough to put you on a psych ward, add SZ and it keeps you there.
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I take my meds and live my life. When I don’t follow that I go off the rails.
I was kind of forced into working. Applied for disability but was denied. My family said I had to work so I did what I could working as a car photographer. Working alone but it was cold and it was hot but alone was good.
I could interact on a basic level with my clients.
Then I worked at a hospital for 3 years. That almost didn’t workout because the voices were so bad but then I found the right med.
Really I hated that job but it had benefits even though I never really received any good counseling. Anyway they let me go because I wouldn’t become a CNA.
So now I’m waitressing but it’s been better for me because I don’t have to be there till 10 and in only work 6 hours a day, which is a better fit. And mostly I work by myself.
Hard to live with this diagnosis since I haven’t had huge problems in awhile. But I mostly keep to myself and do well. Regular people are even crazier than us. We have great hearts and dreams.
I dream all the time of a business that I could start. And I think I’m finally on my way. So keep dreaming.
Check with your chamber of commerce and see if they have a mentor program.
Pm if you want.
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When I got sick 16 years ago it seemed I was coherent only for about 5:hrs a day. I thought I couldn’t work. But felt I had no choice, my wife is a homemaker and I had a new baby son. Pushed myself every minute of every work day to keep going. Changed meds several times and learned to find the stress free lifestyle through God and just going with the flow of things. Got huge help with an antidepressant that my pdoc didn’t think would help. So now symptom free, few side effects, affordable AP’s only thing I really have to deal with is coming out of the closet and fighting the stigma which I hope to do someday if I can get my family onboard.
Its good you kept finding jobs, I recently lost my job cause of lateness. Its been s bummer. But I have been puting in a lot of apps.