but hell… really don’t feel like going on a witch hunt + most of these stuff are just subjective to us, with a logical psychological explanation to them…
But shiit… can’t picture myself living with these voices for another 80 years… They’re not as sorrowful as before, but still unimaginable when I look at guys on youtube talk about how they can’t even take a walk in there neighbourhoods because of their schizophrenia.
Schizophrenia is only something that’s only bearable when it’s just bothering you and not going out to thinking its in other peoples heads too…
I member first days of my schizo, I literally once sat down thinking I’d never be able to do anything with my life - I literally only heard voices at the time - constant, multiple always repeating shouting in my head… I couldn’t watch 5 minutes of a TV show without my mind wondering (literally, after 5 minutes of a show, I’d have no recollection of what happened)… but one thing I always had was peace. I could chill with no worries… but one day they just had to become witchcraft people lol… wrecked my heart. Would choose chilling with the constant dragging voices in peace over worrying my voice in other peoples heads. But now the damage already done.
Wish I never moved into that apartment… should have just gone home when I started feeling I was being watched
Don’t get me wrong… I ACTUALLY BELIEVED it was peoples voices in my head complaining about my voice in there head lol… believed that for major part of 7 months after I started seeing them talk straight at my eyes…
Even had this folked mentality since they’re not actually sitting me down to talk about it, they must be illegal… so I’ll just stay in my room and try reduce the voices then I’ll go talk to them and tell them all about my witchcraft friend and how he gave me the voices lol, but just to be sure, I use to tell them through my voices lol… was the first time I ever talked back with my voices… was me telling them how I got the voices that are bothering there heads… but after a while, you realize they just trolling and the more you hear there voices in you head, the worse your head becomes
pure madness, but am 100% sure any normal guy reading this who goes through what we’re going through will definitely reason the same… first few years anyways.
reminds me of some schizophrenic journalist who had the same mentality I had… he took his family and went to live in some farm… ended up going more crzy there in seclutions… now he just hands around flyiers to people around town. Yea, he’s homeless too. - he didn’t even know his son when he came to see him.
He also talks to the pigeons around.
But one day, I might just walk into a spiritual church and demand answers… yea, also a CURE for
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This schizophrenic guy becomes spiritual… he thinks he know stuff… only one day he comes to me saying he be seeing people talking to him everywhere, even shopkeepers don’t like him etc… and that is schizophrenia, f0king impossible to prove its not just stuff to ignore
Before moving in with that Friend… I had a student ID to one of the best universities in the world, all I had to do was wait 8 months for the transfer… 2 years later here I am thinking its a waste of time to go to university with schizophrenia…
I used to get stabbing pains and horridly painful urinary infections .
I felt i was tortured in a way and i did think people were using witch craft on me but that was yeard and years ago.
I had toads on my face and quiet a few different experiences.
I had a dream rather recently (few months) of a man using crystals and rituals to find out about me or something like that.
I thought they were jealous of me when i was baby and then decided to ruin me and that a group of people decided it when i was so young.
I was not in my body at all back in difficult days and someone else was in my body and others.
I dont think about it now.
I dont want to think about it right now or ever really.
I pray and am happy i think.
Am gonna get rid of this schizo stuff… , If I don’t… am going to the church and find out about all these stuff the Vatican understands about spirituality, and I’ll only quit when I can summon fireballs using my hand 
SADDEST THING about this illness… hearing a bird chirping outside my window… all I understand is it’s questioning me for wanting to go to church with a gun to demand spirituality and its workings lol… PS - only if I can’t get rid of this schizophrenia
yea… been there… once created this psychotic mentality that witchcraft people were training my father on their ways (the people that be constantly talking to my head). The thoughts were just emerging in my mind out of the blues…
read a story about how the Vatican had to close its doors because too many people were coming scheduling exorcisms - which is something they do all the time… just never heard of them doing it to a schizophrenic
did I mention a bird once talked to me? clear and it was repeating the word over and over… like 8 times saying ‘‘schizophrenia’’ schizophrenia, schizophrenia… over and over.
Was at a friends hows and the voices started hitting hard… went outside and sat on the floor… meanwhile other the opposite side I could hear the voices comeing from someone elses apartments… was really bothering and I was directing my mentality to think its from that apartment, then out of nowhere a colourfull bird standing on a tree next to me starts saying schizophrenia, schizophrenia, schizophrenia… was a beautiful bird - first time I saw one like it. Wasn’t even freaked by it lol… just calmed down and went back inside
there’s a certain taboo to making schizophrenia real. A preacher once gave me some water mixed liquid and told me to drink it overnight in small quantities in quiet room then come back to him next day. I did everything he told me but I didn’t go back to him lol… the drink he gave me literally amplified the voices - made then louder and angrier than before… next morning I wake up and bought a bottle of liquor - left the preacher alone, never went back to him lol… but am serious this time, gonna go to him and see if he was serious when he said some nuns can help me get rid of the voices lol
To see a crystal in your dream signifies wholeness, purity, healing, development and unity. It represents your higher Self. The dream may be a metaphor for something in your life that is crystallizing or taking shape.
To dream that you are looking into a crystal represents how you are looking within yourself to find your true destiny. Alternatively, it indicates your outlook of the Future. Got it from dreammoods.com ; your own understanding of the dream may help define it . Its quite accurate from my own experience using it.; Once had a dream where someone was handing me a gun - I took it , then woke up. Shortly after I got attacked by 2 people - I didn’t even fight them back, but they were hitting me and they didn’t want to stop, they just kept hitting me over and over… In the dreammoods.com - , To see a gun in your dream represents aggression, anger and potential danger. That’s most accurate reality based dream I’ve had.
though… last I heard, one of erm is expecting an MRI scan soon 
shishkabible shishkabat
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