When i am in an overwhelming emotional state i frequently lose time(blackout) sometimes in large amounts. I consistantly find writings and drawings that i have no recollection of completing. I have almost no or very “foggy” recollection of my periods of severe psychosis. I have recently been told that i have been having totally lucid conversations expressing veiwpoints in which i do not believe. A good majority of my past almost seems like a dream you cant quite remember. Is this the SZA or a maybe a deeper issue? Coping mechanism? Amnesia? Does anyone else have similar experiences?
You should talk to your pdoc about this, it could be very serious.
I don’t black out, but @flameoftherhine does and he’s diagnosed DID along with sz.
I don’t remember much from my psychotic break, and for a while after I couldn’t remember hardly anything from my past except for the traumatic events. But some things came back, and my memory is getting better, I think.
I don’t know if some of the things that “came back” I only remember because people told me about them.
I called my pdoc a week or so ago when frequency of lapses increased although i have been severely stressed lately coupled with a bit of an episode after a slight manic state. This is generally not and issue i figured i just space out a lot. But the higher frequency and length of time is concerning. This was the first time ive known of that ive had these conversations which is scary. I would assume that these will subside after this period is over but seeing the pdoc in the very near future.
Alright, keep us updated
Whenever i get psychotic i forget details of stuff that happened in the weeks and months leading up to the psychosis. I think psychosis is associated with brain damage. Ideally u should talk to ur pdoc about increasing medication dosage. If u arent treatment resistant u shouldnt be having disorganization/disorientation type symptoms. But remember everyone is unique in how they respond to a med regimen.