I have been having a hard time lately with making it through my work days.
I was off for a month due to COVID, half of that time was just because the testing policy said to have 2 back to back negative tests in 24 hours and I was still testing positive until they changed their policy and I was able to go back.
I don’t know for sure if it is me having more cognitive symptoms than I used to have or if my new medication, Viibryd, is the cause of my difficulty thinking but I am having a hard time doing this. I keep thinking maybe I need to throw in the towel but I also have bills and kids to support.
My memory is terrible and I don’t know that there is anything I can do to change that, it is very frustrating.
We can’t really work together anymore with other coworkers due to social distancing so that makes me feel even more hopeless, I just don’t know what to do and I have no idea what I am even typing this out for, I just want to feel confident but I don’t think I have the abilities I used to have to be able to continue on. I have been faking this as long as I can but I am just not who I used to be and I don’t think I have a mind good enough to do anything else really.
I hate schizophrenia and I hate depression and I hate anxiety.
You have been doing so good, and most of us with this disease can’t work. I have had difficulty keeping a job since getting this illness. The only advice I would give is really try your hardest to hold onto the job. I mean really try. Then if you feel you can’t go on at all after that then okay throw in the towel. But also try to have another job lined up or some kind of income stream opened. You are strong. You will get through this. Keep on fighting.
You’re approx, 10 years younger than myself. I remember… and hope that’s more than ok.
And I haven’t worked for 10 years… maybe that’s why I’m here on this thread.
Try to think of everyday as a victory by paying Social Security. With your memory issues that was an important objective test my SSDI interviewer gave me.
Don’t think of it poorly, the advocate/attorney for this stuff had a tv commercial and said “when you’re disabled you really need your disability income.” (This particular advocate grew up on the benefits because her father was blind.
I worked impossibly hard, didn’t know there was any safety net… Funny is I’d choose less money in my disabillity if I could somehow choose to have never worked my final role at a conglomerate in NYC. This stuff is important…
There’s no shame if you’re no longer able to work. My husband and I are both disabled and we have three kids, and we manage. We don’t have Medicaid but we make do. Our youngest who is a minor is on Medicaid though