Like for example last night I dreamt that I was temporarily living in this beautiful small place, it wasn’t flashy but it was beautiful. I felt incredibly sad in the dream that I don’t actually afford that whilst others can. But then when I woke up, I was like feeling, its OK I don’t HAVE to have that kind of ‘beautiful’ place to live etc.
It’s strange how dreams can make you feel so differently.
It’s like psychosis.
It could make me randomly feel things that I don’t usually feel before. And that disappeared once the psychotic phase was over.
For some reason I have never had a sex dream before. It is wiered, like I always meet girls and get along great with them and when we head to the bedroom the dream always ends. I hate that.
I keep having these adventures with people. It’s like an evolving novel. But I barely remember what’s going on. I just have the faint recollection that i was at the same place again. I am always happy when I wake up from the adventure dream. I have the same dreams over and over again. I could write a map or list out what my dreams are, and put them into categories: they have increased in number, lucidity, and helpfulness since I started working with the carl jung stuff, creative visualization, and writing down the dreams after I wake up. I am not in control of the dreams. They are true dreams. But they are like adventures.
My dreams are better than any movie or book I could produce. I wish i could express them better in the real world. They are clearer in the dream world. Part of why I became so spiritual in tune, and with nature. Like the native americans, dreams have always been a part of the shaman’s way of understanding the things we don’t understand. Trying not to get too magical on this forum. But to me its like crossing a bridge between being awake and asleep. Or passing through a waterfall. On one side is the mystical world of the imagination, and on the other is the material world where dreams can sometimes come true.
Lately I’ve been having the strangest dreams. Some so upsetting they force me out of bed. I don’t know what I’m going to do. I may start taking medicine for it again if it doesn’t calm down soon. I need to not be woken up constantly by theses disturbances.
