I don’t want to get my hopes up…try to work, and then, can’t and feel like a failure…it used to happen all the time when I tried to go back to work early in my recovery. but, I’ve come a long way really since then too so maybe I could work…I just want some kind of simple job in an office somewhere.
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No shame if you try and it doesen’t work out. Psychosis made me lose a couple of jobs, but I’m ok with that looking back.
The way back to work for me was to get with a work programme. Testing my capabilities without pressure.
I work about 30% now. Except I’m struggling with stomach ulcer, so almost no work for 2 months. Hoping it resolves. My doctor is trying to find the cause.
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I’ve tried 2 jobs since getting on disability. I failed at both. It sucks. But I’m still glad I tried.
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I worked part time one summer and I just couldn’t take it due to the sz.
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I worked part time recently and had to quit because of the sz
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I’m not working right now. This is tough because our society places so much value on being productive and making as much money as possible.
So many offices are open concept too. Everyone hears everyone’s business, and I feel like I’m being watched. I once had this bully of a coworker and the others would run to her and fill her in on my latest screw up, because she just hated me, and the others wanted a bit of attention by badmouthing me to her. Sometimes, when I’d mess up, one person would move a hand over her head to show that “it went over my head.” I was standing right there! When people knew about my condition, they’d try to gaslight me saying I imagined their behaviour.
I can type accurately at 70 wpm, and write very well when I’m very coherent and not so paranoid, but doing stuff like taking phone calls is hard, because I can’t concentrate worth s#$%.
I once asked for written instructions (but I didn’t admit my memory was very bad). The senior graphic designer said, “Sorry, we don’t have that luxury here.” I never got another contract with them. I screwed up because I couldn’t remember the instructions, and did more work than necessary.
The worst thing is if I admit to people I have SZ, and have these difficulties, people become very scared of me, and treat me differently, as if I’m going to break a chair over their head, or something.
I tried the workplace again - night hygiene operative but quit after 2 months mainly due to cannabis useage and sz. I was lucky not to come out of that factory blind.
Don’t think about it you won’t know it’s like untill you’ve tried.
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