The cognitive damage is the worst when people talk to me and say complex information. It sounds complex to me. So I like my brain art rest just thinking I feel a ease and not damaged
I see. I think I know what you’re saying. Yeah, I have a hard time understanding people if they speak fast about stuff I don’t know about.
Yeah it like that for normal brains too. But add some crunching and damage and stuff. It gets harder. I used to just think I was incompetent. I guess it is. But I think normally so I’m not
But your right intensify that. It’s kind of what my main issue is. I just call it damage it so bad
Your probably having some processing issues too
I’ve been employed for 38 years. What you describe sounds pretty normal to me. I’ve never been the guy at work who’s liked by everybody. If a couple people like me or a few people are nice to me that’s good enough for me. I don’t like to talk anyways so if only one or two people talk to me I’m satisfied. And right now I work among a lot of people in an office building and my treatment by the office workers ranges from indifferent to friendly, short conversations. But I’m sure many people don’t like me but they’re professionals and give a certain amount of respect to me, and each other.
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@NonExistant when I was struggling to stay working I would take time off work. In California we have State disability of temporary disability where they would pay about 75% of your normal pay while you recouperate from an illness. So when I got bad I would do that for a couple months and get my meds straight, or get my head straight or whatever I needed, then get back and that would help for awhile. Kept me going till I was 43. I worked from 15 years old. Maybe your state has that.
I’m not going to avoid you, but if you’re always like this at work then you’re going to find yourself on the shortlist for being removed. It will make you toxic to your co-workers and affect their productivity if they have to work with you. Not trying to throw shade, just being honest as someone who has been continuously employed with SZ for the past quarter century. I struggle with being social and had to learn how to work with others all over again after getting SZ.
If your work is important to you, you will have to adjust your behaviour. I suggest starting with inexpensive therapy workbooks on Amazon if you can’t get access to a real therapist.
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I really do understand you and feel for you @NonExistant.
There’s a good chance that all this “hate” you are feeling coming at you from different people and from everybody is just all in your head and nothing more than paranoia on your part. I suffered the same way for over 33 years. It was the most horrible suffering imaginable.
The only way to get rid of it, for me, was meds, meds, and more meds. I suggest you confide in your pdoc the same way you have here with us. Bless you.
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Maybe talk with your boss about what you experience?
If it still is negative i would consider change job, because its important you somewhat like your workplace.
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I don’t know if they are treating him badly or it is simply his perception he is being treated badly.
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It may not be stigma against SZ, it could simply be a reaction to someone always being negative.
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I have been in good and bad workplaces. Thankful I’m currently in a good one.
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It’s still possible to keep your head up and project a positive image when when you’re up to your neck in crap at work. It’s a learned skill, but boy is it a good one to have.
Welcome to the community. I look forward to more waggy finger.
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Some people know but I would never tell any employer I had schizophrenia.
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I would like to see everyone develop this skill - it’s one of the most powerful defenses against negative symptoms.
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No need for sarcasm.
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I knew you were going to say that. I actually don’t think he was belittling the op. I think he makes some good points.
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Difficult to know if you’re “hated” but mental health stigma at work is real. At least in my experience I was more micromanaged, and treated differently. It’s easy to take offence to snide remarks, and think that whenever they say “crazy” they’re referring to you but just rise above it imo and collect that paycheck. If it gets very bad and it is affecting your mental health look elsewhere for a position that respects your mental health.
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there shouldn’t be any shame in living off gov assistance when you genuinely need to
I hope you find peace in whatever you decide
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Jumping right in and trying to argue with people is never a good look. That doesn’t go over well.
Maybe get to know users and their post history before trying it. May give you insight on why people offer the advice or viewpoints that they do.
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Welcome to the forum 
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33 years struggling in the workplace oh my god thats awful for you, i know how it feels as i struggled at different jobs for over a decade theres nothing worse than suffering with schizophrenia symptoms while trying to keep a roof over your head and feeling everything and everyone is working against you
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