i hate this feeling, i would literally rather do anything else than take medicine. i got back on invega and now im 270, up from 260, my illness isnt either there or gone there are no gradual levels of being. that probably means i need lithium, i feel like im a walking bag of poison. the ct scan juice, the chemotherapy, the antipsychotics, the antidepressants, the xanax and stupid hydrocodeine, im surrounded by chemicals, i used to eat organic not to get cancer, now i have like every effin illness in the book…
i know ive got to get a job, im trying to rev up to get a job, but my mental chemicals or something keep changing on me and its not letting me
Have you tried talking to your pdoc about how you feel on Invega? I was on Invega Sustenna for a year and felt similar. I was miserable. Wasn’t until I started my new medication that I was able to start actually living a life.
I don’t like being dependent on chemicals for my well-being either, but the alternative (eventual institutionalization) is worse for me. I’ve been in state hospitals for multiple months before and will take the chemicals over that any day.
invega is the only one working, risperdal made me gain 10 lbs a month, i feel a lot of pressure to clean that and showering are like the only things i can not do for myself, or leave the house. i can feel the need to take action to move. i dont feel my bodys free will
That most likely means the medication is working and without it you would probably eventually relapse. And adding a relapse to your other problems is not anything you would want.
It’s possible to lose weight on AP’s, I don’t know if going on a diet is a good idea for you now with the other problems you’re going through. Maybe it is a good idea. I lost 50 lbs while on Prolixen with the Atkins diet but gained it back two years later. Then I lost 60 lbs while on resperidone with a variation of the Atkins.